arguments with my Christian bf:
Him: you're going to hell for not believing in God
Me: Well I don't believe in hell so I don't believe I'm going there
Him: what are you going to do once you're dead and you meet God then?
Me: well I don't believe in him so I won't meet him
Him: but when you do he'll send you to hell
(this is the same bf who says he respects everyone else's opinions and respects my views O_O)
how can you look at me and pretend I'm someone you've never met?
honestly don't know what to do anymore
feels like every time I talk i just upset my friends or add little to the friendship
but if I don't talk i'll eventually drift away and lose them
sooo wtf do I do?
Sometimes, I miss people that used to be in my life and feel the urge to reach out and tell them "hey I know we don't talk anymore but I still fold my sweater the way you taught me to". Not in a "I want you back in my life" way but more of a "my life has more colors now because of all the days we spent laughing together and I'm thankful for that".
I wish boobs were detachable. Because sometimes I want to look like a genderless being, other times the outfit needs boobs.
"you've been really quiet recently, what happened? Why don't you talk as much anymore"
maybe because everytime i get excited and start talking to you, you say I'm being too loud, shut up omg, to calm down and "wow you're really talkative aren't you?"
like what do you want from me at this point???
laying in bed at night knowing she doesn't miss me as much as i miss her
she doesn't cry every night, begging for it to end
she doesn't lash out at everyone around her because she's so upset and angry with the world
she isn't in therapy because we're not friends anymore
She doesn't want me back and she never will