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Fyodor Dostoevsky - Blog Posts
Fukuchi wasn't invited
Bramification is REAL
Guys I'm a multishipper
The things I could say about those clown thighs...
Decay of angels sketch but something looked off about it so I never finished it
The meme
Cuz it's spooky month
Cuz it's spooky month
@nirhia s Pokemon x bsd AU fanart ✨️
I love the choices of pokemon!!!
I'm getting too lazy to post different things on different platforms soooo
I don't plan on posting the same content across platforms, so I'll probably use this account for sketches and such
You'll never guess who I found in the wild..
fjeifjrufjrifhrifj i hate digital arting. Broskis, i forgot how to render so i had to relearn dnjrigjrij take kinda rendered hair idk i give up
Seriously was mad confused when she (my sister) started the conversation saying, "You know that furry thing in bungo tales (mayoi)??" (She doesn't read the manga, doesn't watch the anime, nor even check the scenarios. She's just there for Elise and Naomi. (〒▽〒) ) we took about half an hour trying to figure it out who the tf she means, i even asked her to draw them
yeah that didn't help at ALL so i tried again by showing her different characters soon she pointed at Fyodor saying she means that guy.
Doodles to my bsd bar au X2
It's fofor (im gonna cry, i just watched the yellow incident on yt)
this is probably not a cannon talk between the two but let me imagine this with my au 🙏
i accidentally spilt a little water on Fyodor, its fine since he looks uglier. uhm, spoilers?? Tecchou's/Tetchō's/bgg's design
merrow, i already have Margaret done, just gotta think of some quotes that might fit her.
Meow.. (I KEEP FUCKING FORGETTING TO ADD MY WATERMARK DINFIE3WNERFJEN) anyways, auhhhh Margaret I'm doing next :3
background info for this loser rat (Fyodor) - he's the loser who was banned from decorating the place (Nikolai was responsible for that.) So Sigma and Nikolai did the decorating.
- this is my second version of him since i messed up on the first one on coloring and was very demotivated.
- Owns a rat and keeps it in a huge cage, treating it like a hamster. - where does he get his money from bro- wait I own this au- nvm he just had "special" funds (he totally didn't blackmail someone.)
Everyone. Do you realize what this boy is begging for? Do you even fathom the weight of what he just asked?
This is the same boy who declared the lengths he'd go to in order to live wholeheartedly.
And now he's begging to die. Just to save his friends. The only people he can call family. Without even an ounce of hesitation.
The devastation in his eyes. The desperation in his voice. I can't take it anymore-
Knowing what we know now about Fyodor’s ability makes me wonder what would’ve happened if Nikolai actually managed to kill him.
If Nikolai found out what would happen, would he still want to kill Fyodor?
Or would he try even harder to kill him?
Nikolai would get the death he so wishes but Fyodor would live. He cannot win.
The new BSD chapter is about to make me have my fisheye moment I swear.
fyozai my otp... where im fyodor and hes dazai but i was beastzai and he was beastchuu and we yes yes yippee
im so in love with my boyfriend it’s not even funny. please kiss me and hold me and caress me until my body only remembers the soft warmness of your touch.
me me me and and and him him him.
everything is a reference. and i mean EVERYTHING, so here is a list of everyday things i associate with my favorite charas / ships / fandoms- i want you, YES YOU, to guess what their connection is (keep in mind, some may seem fairly obvious):
rats, snow, russia, ushankas, cellos (string instruments in general), literally anything white or purple, fish (mackerels especially), bandages, trench coats, bolo ties, suicide, slugs, small things, red tattoos, waistcoats, gravity, dress shoes, doughnuts, bicycle wheels (im so sorry if you understand this), glasses, raccoons, dogs, birds (doves), dolls, anything medical . . . .
add your own and i suppose ill guess what your reference is too!
daily affirmations:
i am worthy i am not a burden i did not kill my father and steal 3000 rubles and then walk through my town covered in blood before visiting my friend who wiped off the blood for me and then i told him i was going to kill myself then- i can do it
Relationship Headcanons
Fandom: BSD -Bungo Stray Dogs
TW: none? I think?
DAZAI
I said it in my Soukoku fic, Dazai wouldn’t know affection if it slapped him in the face ten times
Like he might realize when someone is showing interest in a sexual kind
And he would probably notice if someone is crushing on him
But like, if he likes them back?
No
Man is blind
He’s too busy panicking over read denying his own thoughts and feelings over you to analyze your actions
He’s busy trying to think of anything but how pretty you are when he sees you -thank you very much
No joke though, this can be applied to pretty much anyone he cares about
I mean he practically had a heart attack when Atsushi gave him flowers
Anyways if he finally admits to himself that he likes you then I could see him trying to push you away if I’m being brutally honest
He doesn’t want to lose you and he believes that anything he wants that he obtains, will be striped from him sooner or later
But…, in a perfect world he would eventually work up the courage to ask you out
He would probably avoid directly asking you but this is Dazai so he could defiantly figure out some round-about way to ask
As for the relationship?
He would still be his teasing self
But he would tone it down
Not because he doesn’t want to annoy you but more so because he actually lets some of his masks down when alone with you
He defiantly is very clingy to you
Man has been touch starved for a long time and he fears attachment too much to be touchy with the ADA members
But now he has you, who not only tolerates him but has decided to stay with him?
Of course he’s not going to let this chance slip from his grasp before all this inevitably ends (he’s still in denial)
He never cared much for holidays like Christmas or Valentines
But now he wants to experience them, with you
He’s always thinking, plans and outcomes racing through his mind, what ifs and regrets
But like, if you ruffle his hair, his brain just stops.
Like no thoughts, he short circuits
When his brain returned to him the first time it happened he panicked
Like, who gave you that amount of control?
After that first time he continued to try and get you to do it without asking
He needed his brain to shut up every now and then, and now he has a reliable source
Anyways, he likes to be a spoiled princess
No one can change my mind
For all his predictions he will never be able to predict your love and kindness for him
CHUUYA
Someone give this poor man a hug
Ugh, my heart
I can‘t imagine him wanting to date a normal citizen, too much of a risk
So you’d probably have to work in the Mafia
Even then, dating you would still be placing a huge target on you
He would actually take you out on dates before asking you out
Dates with him would be romantic
Like dinner by candle light vibes
He’d be strategic on where you guys sit
No need to be precarious on what you order, it’s all on him
When he does ask you out he would be slightly flustered but it just makes him adorable
Say yes, he doesn’t deserve to be hurt any more
He would spoil you to no end
If you want it, you can have it
You’re the only one allowed to call him short
He might get flustered from PDA in the start but will gradually warm up to it
Nothing clingy, just hand holding, a hand around your waist, a quick kiss here or there
But if he sees some guy hitting on you?
Down right possessive, arm snug around your waist, shoulder to shoulder
And if he’s drunk? Even worse
Like he’s pulling you onto his lap just to make sure that asshole knows your taken
If you do work in the mafia with him, he likes going on easier missions with you
And while he knows that you can handle yourself just fine, he can’t help but imagine something bad happening to you when he isn’t there to save you
He’s lost too many people in his life, please, don’t leave him as well
He loves when you rest your head on his chest and listen to his heartbeat
And while you do that he’ll run his fingers through your hair
Chuuya loves to spoil you rotten as I stated, it’s his love language
So sometimes he’ll just hand you his black card and let you go shopping with friends or something
In fact, he encourages you to buy what you want
FYODOR
Honestly? Where do I start with him?
Like congratulations if you meet him and make it out alive
I don’t know if I should congratulate him taking an interest in you though
I feel like he believe that the interest he had in you was purely innocent curiosity
But I also don’t think he would try to delude himself for as long as Dazai does
Eventually he would notice that something was different about his interest for you than usual
And while he would hesitate to put a name to it so quickly he would eventually give in after realizing there was no stoping this feeling from festering in him
After coming to terms with his romantic? Feelings and interest in you he would definitely begin to manipulate you into feeling the same way for him
If you don’t already that is
If you don’t confess then he’ll definitely do the same thing Dazai did
And when you agree, he of course knew you would, he makes you move in with him
He can’t let his dearest other slip from his finger now can he?
I feel like before ever getting into a relationship, you would have been made aware of his ‘work’
Please, make sure the man eats
And takes his iron pill
Nikolai is getting a little tired of that daily routine despite how much he loves to be around Fyodor
Anyways, dates aren’t a very common thing in fact, very, very rare
I mean… what did you expect?
Man’s a literal terrorist
That being said, from time to time he’ll leave his ‘lair’ to spend time with you
If you ask, he’ll gladly play the cello for you
If he snaps at you for ‘bothering him with pointless things’ when you bring him his iron pill or food just listen
Don’t bother him with such things
And then same thing the next day
And after some 4 or 5 days he’ll stumble from his room
Staggering as he tries not to collapse or faint from both his lack of energy and his iron deficiency
And when he walks into the kitchen trying to get the iron pill bottle open?
Let him stumble his way over to you and ask for help before you finally do as such
And he realizes just how dependent on you he’s become
It’ll happen again eventually
But as of that moment, it’ll at least be awhile before the cycle repeats
(That last part of Fyodor’s was based upon some fanfic I read for him. I'm not sure who it was by, but I’ll tag it if and when I do find it.)
A/N: anyways, believe it or not, I love Chuuya just as much as I do Fyodor and Dazai
I’m just not as confident in his character. Since I’m a lot like Dazai, he comes easy to me and by substitute, Fyodor does as well
But Chuuya? Despite him being one of my 5 favorites along with Dazai and Fyodor, I just don’t resonate personally enough with him to write him really well
POV: you're listening to Fyodor explain in the new chapters
He's so cute little rat 🥺
Since you all loved my pigeon Nikolai art so much, here's rat Fyodor :)
Rodya Raskolnikov and Alyosha Karamazov. My beloveds (baby girls, if you will)
dostoy fandom not ready for the manga idea i had a year ago thats loosely raskolnikov and alyosha doing hot girl shit together
literally so funny in tbk the amount of times alyosha scurries and vaults himself over walls and hedges and gates while in his longass monk robes. the image of it described every time is the funniest thing ever i love him so dearly
The thing about me and Dostoevsky books is that everytime I read (or start rereading) one, I start wanting to read everything he has ever written... all at once.
If that's not a sign of severe mental instability what is?