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A few months ago I started playing rdr2 and one night I sat bolt upright at 3 am thinking about Arthur Morgan, took 15 minutes to write this, and went back to sleep. Yes I’m pretty sure I was possessed

Anyway it’s a poem about a cowboy and his dead lover:

It’s been a long time since I saw you last

Since you drew breath, smelled the grass and the dust and the dirt

Since I laid next to you on the ground and watched you doze off in the heat of the afternoon

And it had been even longer since we walked through fields of gold together in Autumn,

Since we held each other and whispered amongst ourselves what was, what will be, and what can be

And it’s been a while since I’ve thought of you last

It’s been a while

But now I think of you often

I think of you when I eat, and when I sleep,

And when I cup my hands and drink from a waterfall

And when my arrow pierces the hide of a deer,

I think of you as I hear it dying

I hear you everywhere

I hear you in the trees, and in the breeze

I hear you in the quiet laughter of the people I still care about

I hear you in the chirping of the birds at dawn and the trilling of the crickets at dusk

I hear you in the cold, howling wind of midwinter

I hear you when I sing softly to myself

Sometimes I see you, too

I can picture you posing on the cliff as the sun sets and you stare off into the distance meaningfully

As I reach out and touch the place you used to sleep,

The sheets thrown off because it gets warm very early in the Spring

And I see you on your horse,

And I see you in the stream

And I see you in every good deed

And I see you in every tear shed

And I see you in the clouds that drift by, careless of the fact that you are gone,

And I see you,

And I see you,

And I can still see you

And I see you in the unfathomable blue of the summer sky

And the nothingness of the stars at night

And I see you next to me when I close my eyes

But never when I open them.

I’m this close to cracking this thing wide open

I’m fucking hungry and you all are going to suffer for it

hi im the new guy i just started my shift?

never used tumblr before but as i am young and gay i feel as though my time has come. i like to draw and sometimes write stuff so ill probably post that at some point. gonna do my due diligence and watch the tumblr etiquette manual by @strange-aeons on youtube so i dont mess up thanks for stopping by

I'm sorry not sorry but I have a confession

I love the show Hilda

REDRAW!

ORIGINAL IMAGE!

Here's the speedpaint just in case-

ok considering I've done jackshit and just got the burst of motivation; im gonna go write on the shin goji fic I said I would, if anyones confused I'm referring to this. might as well give a little schedule thingy whatever

1. shin godzilla atomic breath scene fic

2. md x mv (mg) p4

3. mg fics

these r all in order of priority

⯌ posting dr self sketches [unprofessionally] pt. 2:

"S" PERSONA DETAILS !

quality is so bad trust it wont be like this for long y'all 😭

⯌ posting dr self sketches [unprofessionally] pt. 1:

<3 my cats, mis gatos, mis hijosss los extrañooo

(sk8ti dr)

(OH MY GOSH I ALMOST POSTED IN THE SKATERS COMMUNITYYY)

imma try to post some sketches of my dr self through a low functioning device and pure willpower

♬

Nyehehe thank youuu

🥨 for baked goods ask game

YAYYY ANOTHER ONE HEYY!!

Answering for my sk8 dr again ♡

"🥨 : PRETZEL . . . create a mood board of your home in your desired reality. your favorite rooms, the exterior, the interior, the vibe, etc."

Another moodboard!!! >:) Here ya go

It's probably somewhat out-of-place in my DR since I do live in Okinawa-

ANyhow, first image (top left) is the general look of our house

The top image to the right of the first image is my room, and the bottom one is like the way to the backyard <3

The middle two images are a window in the living room and the general bathroom respectively !

Bottom two are the living room and the entrance to the kitcheennnn

But iiii had a hard time trying to make it reasonable and not stand out because it wouldn't make sense to have an odd-one-out in the neighborhood... (so sorry this took so long to make vro I promise I didn't mean to take so long--)

(All images found on Pinterest!)

🥨 for baked goods ask game

YAYYY ANOTHER ONE HEYY!!

Answering for my sk8 dr again ♡

"🥨 : PRETZEL . . . create a mood board of your home in your desired reality. your favorite rooms, the exterior, the interior, the vibe, etc."

Another moodboard!!! >:) Here ya go

It's probably somewhat out-of-place in my DR since I do live in Okinawa-

ANyhow, first image (top left) is the general look of our house

The top image to the right of the first image is my room, and the bottom one is like the way to the backyard <3

The middle two images are a window in the living room and the general bathroom respectively !

Bottom two are the living room and the entrance to the kitcheennnn

But iiii had a hard time trying to make it reasonable and not stand out because it wouldn't make sense to have an odd-one-out in the neighborhood... (so sorry this took so long to make vro I promise I didn't mean to take so long--)

(All images found on Pinterest!)

Update:

I tried a guided meditation yesterday but my device shut off halfway through so I just went to sleep. This, in turn, delayed my uhhh... contemplation of giving up and so I did wake up today (clearly). And throughout today I got a new hope and I decided that I would use an unused little hello kitty notebook to my advantage and use it to persist in my wicca practices, mainfestations, and my permashift ofc. (and overall not give up just yet)

So long story short, I'm still on thin ice but at least I'm gonna keep persisting because shifting is literally saving my life, and I've gone on for this long with it. So why not continue? I'm tired, but I want it really bad. I do.

TW: "sewerslide" mention!!!

Venting lmao

Uhm so I've been going through it honestly. But I hate it because I'm pretty sure it's all just me and it's in my head as it usually tends to be.

Anyhow, long story short I've been feeling worse than ever and keep contemplating just giving up on everything. It's not even shifting it's just I feel that I genuinely can't. do anything. even the knowledge or the hope that I can js get out of here isn't helping. I keep crashing out honestly. I haven't felt like this in so long I was so sure I would never feel downright bad. I'm genuinely literally just putting pity on myself atp and it doesn't help thinking about it. but I cant ask for help they don't want to reach out to anyone, they wont let me.

But I want to try even if for just one last time to make it through. I would like to shift today, or even just change my state of mind despite it being really goddamn hard for me right now. I just hope it won't be my last time.

TO THE PERSON WHO SUBMITTED AN ASK FOR THE FRUIT SHIFTING ASK GAME: IM SO SORRY YOUR ASK GOT DELETED BECAUSE I POSTED IT UNFINISHED BY ACCIDENT. I PROMISE I"LL FIND HOW UNDO THIS😭🙏

Oh shiiiiiii

I think imma have competitionnnnn.....

I WAS SO SCARED THEY WERENT GONNA RELEASE IT ON CRUNCHYROLL TODAY BUT I CHEKCED THE OFFICIAL IG AND THEY DECIDED TO RELEASE IT BC SCREW IT AND NOW ITS RELEASEDDDDDDD

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

So my Phone is having difiv7ktieewas currently cut i had q drreram wyeeere I woke up 3leswhere and I was excited vc I thought i shift3d!!!!

NEBULA'S REASONS TO SHIFT ; #26

✧ To forget how to grief .

happy birthday!!!!

THANK YOUUU♡♡♡

(sorry I'm late but still)

Very tired, had a fun birthday, named a peep plush after a weezer song. We all good. Goodnight, I love you

SHES HOME♡♡♡

My wifeeeeeeeeeeeee

My sibling has wanted to know who would win in a beef between Langa and Cherry

so when I shift, I'll only come back once to tell my sibling who won, and that's that. From then on, I'm out and about

Had another dream about using my roller skates... I think the universe has had it with me

ok I'm safe chat

update I had a misunderstanding to understand and though not everything is understood I don't have to permanently delete myself for now :p

For the ask games I'm sorry that's gonna be a while btw‼️ trust yall will hear my yap soon, so don't let go of that breath buddy you're not freed from my rants/j

Hi

Hiii !!! How are you ? :] What's up?

Today my group got to get into some meditation vehicle and the host said soso much that resonated w me bc all the words they said I had already heard in some shape or form through shiftblr + loablr/manifesting... like this is a legitimate thing y'all, all they did was reaffirm and confirm all we keep learning and hearing.

I love that the host said that we are most definitely not the body, too...

I felt so overwhelmed today honestly... like I just didn't know how to react to anything at all. I didn't like to feel the contact on myself but I dismissed it for light dizziness or something. Now I want to isolate myself but it wasn't even that big I just idk

I feel guilty too chffvhgvhfhyfg

NEBULA'S REASONS TO SHIFT ; #25

✧ Super cool (though uncommon on Earth-19) creature friends !

So lately I've been... doing research, to say the least, on a French painter from the 19th century and this guy died in his 30s but...

idk how to put this but lowk ahhhmm 👀 what if I met him. what if I did. What if I just dropped in and had a whole romance guys... (and somehow try to avoid his death)

Idk y'all...

SK8 TI DR : MAIN SKATEBOARD 🪄💫

Board design for sk8ti DR !!!☆

It looks so wild I actually don't know what I'm doing...

Ofc it looks as wacky as I do idk what I expected but oh welp 💥💥💥