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I was sick last week, and that gave me the opportunity to waste all my time on reading and writing and thinking...

Now im just simply feeling like I might cry in any second, I'm tired of school, tired of everyone, especially myself, and i can't focus on anything.

I fcking hate myself for it, because I have really important exams and events coming up and I don't even have a reason to feel this way.

I know the problem is with me, but I can't help it, I might just give up at this point.

Hey I’m currently working on an Apollo Justice fan fiction. I want to add Khurainese as a language in it but have no idea how. Any suggestions?

Y'all I need help..... So how do you add links to like for example your masterlist cus I got the links ready but I just don't know how to add stuff to it! (I hope this makes sense) so If you know how to do it for mobile phone PLEASE TELL ME

Crouton of beautiy

OMG YK WHAT PMO SO BAD????

so i have pretty bad social anxiety, and presenting in front of people is one thing, but presenting in front of people i’m not comfortable with/don’t know well is another. In this case, I’m presenting in front of people i’m not comfortable with or don’t know well. Sometimes while i’m presenting, i’ll be talking, then all of a sudden in the middle of saying a word, i’ll just stop speaking unintentionally. it’s like, for example, “I love Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure so mu-…” AND THEN I JUST STOP SPEAKING??? It’s like my breath gives out or something??? idk but it pmo so bad and i’m so tired of it😭

Another thing with my social anxiety is that it takes me a while to actually get started on talking when presenting something in class. I just stand there and look dumb. I look around the room and at the floor then back to my teacher and they’re just like, “It’s fine. Whenever you’re ready” and then I try again, but i just CANT DO IT. So of course my classmates get impatient and start looking at their friends with THOSE kinds of facial expressions while they wait for me to finally start talking. Then when I do the other problem I talked about before starts up☹️ idk what to do you guys ugh this is so annoying

sorry for the yap

Can somebody PLEASE give me the summarization of all the characters (excluding Benji) PLSSS!????

The wiki doesn’t say anything, and I barely remember anyone’s descriptions!! Somebody help so I can finish the line up 😭

okay but

I was listening to rio Romeo for the thousandth time because I have a problem and

am I the only one that just realized that Butch 4 Butch is supposed to be sung as a duet? like

and now I can't unhear it 😭😭

also expect a 15 paragraph essay tomorrow of me overanalyzing every detail in ghostfuckers

🇺🇲:Oh hi hello my dears

Do you remember the lore I yapped about before? Well, I'd like to give you a little summary about it, pretty much shitty, yeah, but easy for y'all to get.

As I said, this story occurs during 2019 or so, pretty modern time but yet nit the 2020's. This is a "dystopia + (sort of) fantasy and sci-fi".

POV: There is a virus in the world (nOt ThE cOvId) that "corrupts" people and, ahaldijslsck OBVIOUSLY, it's called "corruption" (it can't be more cliché). Angels and demons exist too! Based on biblical and satanic religions or smth like that (don't mind me too much, I'm a. agnostic and I wanted to insert all that stuff because my ass says so).

In this world, the corrupts are a taboo subject in society, being seen as murderers, monsters or the most disgusting shi on the planet, while the government sees them as biological weapons, since only "corrupt weapons" can murder the said corrupts. Angels are pure and divine beings, mAGICALLY APPEARING ON EARth as five-years-old-children, more or less, every time someone dies they fulfil some important requirements of the bible itself; the bad thing is that they are under vigilance at all times in case they break any commandment, being punished and turning into fallen angels with the penalty according to their punishment. Demons... they are happy, those people are taboo too but they go pretty much... yolo abt it. Many of them just wreak havoc and, like angels, they appear on earth in the same way only if that dead person meets the requirements of Satanism or some capital sin.

There are three main organisations in this universe: the governments, the criminals and the "scientists". How does it work? Simple, our main organisation is a government paid agency (Umbral Operatives) dedicated to research, weapons innovation, military force and surveillance of the corrupt, who by the way, have hitmen or spies for the control of any potential danger although they are more often used for criminals. Then there are the mafias or gangs of gangsters, people who pursue their own interests in questionable ways, nothing more, nothing less. And finally there are the "scientists" which is more like... a cult who, as you might imagine, are the creators of the virus itself. Why? No idea (yet), my friends.

🇨🇺:Oh hi hello my dears

¿Se acuerdan del lore que les conté? Pues me gustaría hacer un pequeño resumen muy a la mierda pero que sea entendible para ustedes.

  Cómo dije, esta historia se basa aproximadamente en el 2019, algo contemporáneo pero sin llegar a la actualidad. Esto es una "distopía con su toque de fantasía y ciencia ficción" ya que existe un virus por el mundo (y no, no es el coronavirus) que "corrompe" a las personas y, por obviedad, se le denomina "corrupción" (más cliché no puede ser) además de la existencia de ángeles y demonios basados en las religiones bíblicas y satánicas o algo así (no me hagan mucho caso que soy agnóstica y me quise meter acá porque me sale de donde no brilla el sol).

  En este mundo, los corruptos son tema tabú en la sociedad siendo vistos como asesinos, monstruos o la asquerosidad más grande del planeta mientras el gobierno los vé como armas biológicas ya que solo las "armas corruptas" pueden matarlos. Los ángeles son seres puros y divinos, apareciendo como niños de 5 años aprox en el mundo cada que muere alguien cumplen con algunos requisitos importante de la mismísima biblia; lo único malo es que son velados en todo momento por si incumplen con algún mandamiento, siendo castigados y convertidos en ángeles caídos con la pena según su castigo. Los demonios... son felices, esa gente son tabú también pero ¿Crees que les importa un comino? A muchos no, sólo hacen el caos y, como los ángeles, aparecen en la tierra de la misma forma sólo que si esa persona muerta cumple con los requisitos del satanismo o algún pecado capital.

  Existen tres organizaciones en este universo: el gobierno, los criminales y los "científicos" ¿Qué cómo funciona? Simple, nuestra organización principal es una agencia pagada por el gobierno (Umbral Operatives) dedicada a la investigación, inovación de armas, fuerza militar y vigilancia a corruptos, que por cierto, tienen sicarios o espías para el control de cualquier peligro potencial aunque se suelen usar más para los criminales. Luego estan las mafias o bandas de malandros (XD), gente que buscan sus propios intereses de maneras cuestionables, nada más y nada menos. Y al final están los "científicos" que es más bien una "secta o culto" que, como debieron imaginar, son los creadores del mismo virus ¿Por qué? Ni idea, amigos míos.

Yes, I draw this and yes, it's a bullshit.

(Sorry for my really bad English)

im inside your walls

Oh? I'm not there since I'm inside your walls, is that why I couldn't see you anywhere?

Japan..(⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

So pretty and popular..

Give me Followers D:

For emo's out there!^⁠_⁠^

I swear my pfp doesn't match my freak😓😓

i really want to write a one piece fanfic with like my own character in it but like it’s all good and well in my imagination but trying to put it into words in a book is just like …

i feel like i don’t have my own creativity and i’ll just get inspired by other fanfics i’ve read but i feel like i’ll be like so inspired or base my fanfics on theirs to the point where it’s borderline plagiarism and i dont wanna do that

but i do want to write a fanfic of one piece putting my character in different situations, settings.

it’s not even my own character as well it’s just trying to write a fanfic in general with the normal straw hats. i don’t have the motivation nor the creativity i’ll feel as though i’m basically copying other amazing fanfics

Can anyone give me an idea of what her colors should be? He name is Hopper, and she's a somewhat complex character and the mc of her world. She's fast and bubble but is really quiet and melancholy, like when she "sparks" like the top picture.

throwback to when i was like 5-10 and i thought the world was made of spiders because i have a nurological disorder called visual snow (it's where everything has like a layer of static) and its pretty severe, so i thought that one wrong step and the entire world would collapse. and i was scared because i thought that if the spiders started not liking me then they would just like stop being there to form me. and that's why the existence of atoms and how the never actually were destroyed, just moved, made so much sense to me.

When the hyperfixations hits and you wake up 17 hours later to a half finished drawing

Is it just me?

Am I the only one who forgets to eat almost all day then complains about it later at 12:23 in the morning?

Just me?

Okay noted-

You know that feeling when you write up a beginning chapter for a story you had a great idea for. Then you end up revisiting it like a year later and you suddenly get a bunch of ideas for it. Then after you write a whole page for it you go pack to the three full pages you already wrote and you reread it and you just... THERE'S SO MANY MISTAKES! Now you have to spend THREE FUCKING DAYS rewriting just about every fricking line and your eyes feel like there bleeding because its 2:27a.m. on a Thursday and you're not even done cause you still need to fix all the mistakes in the new pages, and your character is starting to get as self deprecating as you and your head is swimming because your Spotify playlist is a jumble of 60's up beat happiness to 00's weird ass pop punk and what even is your life, WHY THE FUCK IS THE FAIRY TAIL THEME SONG IN THERE?!... N-no? Just... Just me? O-okay, well um, yeah that's all. Thanks for your time!

Is it just me,

Or could I really see Momo doing this?

Ice skating, that is...

...

The fanart.

I just felt like posting the fanart.

Fight me.

Me: *In the mirror, pretending to be a model in a shampoo commercial.*

Friend 1: Okay, now left, right, and...

Friend 2: ArE yOu TiReD oF dRy, UnRuLy HaIr?

It's fr 3:56 am and I CAN NOT SLEEP AT ALL

Parents: my child is okay!

The child: watches 10 hours of video essay, lives on tea and biscuits, writes 20k words on one sitting, has debates with themselves, hates everyone, sleeps more than 12 hours, has no goals, has no friends, does not realise the day-night cycle, cries randomly.

Parents: I choose to ignore that

I want to feel and be loved but because of the media I’ve been conditioned to think teenage romance is only meant to last if it’s secretive, most notably gay romance.

THIS. THIS IS WHAT I MEAN. OMG I LOVE INHUN SO MUCH GUYS IM SHAKING GNAWING AT THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE I LOVE THEM 😭💔

Why do you ship inhun? Does the ship make sense? I don't kinda see it but I guess there is something between them, I'd really like to know your thoughts about it

Hmm. Interesting question. I do think they “make sense” in a shippable way.

Note that if you’re not into not-entirely-sane ships then it might not appeal to you. However, I can try to answer what appeals to me. I’ll try to put screen caps or links but ngl I’m not gonna try hunting down all of it. Here’s the manifesto:

1. The narrative casting them as character foils

So each character in the show often not only represent themselves, but to some extent the show’s themes. Since before Gi-hun becomes a victor, he is shown to be discongruent with the nature of the games. The first “true” meeting between In-ho and Gi-hun happens to be at this point in S1:

Mind you when this occurs, it’s after the gamemakers deliberately starve the players to incite violence between them. Deoksu/101 just killed a man. This outcome is exactly desired.

In a way this is a microcosm of the rest of their ideological struggle — that being whether or not humans are inherently selfish and cruel.

We later see the theme again during the last fight scene, when Gi-hun reaches his hand out to Sang-woo. Not only is this a moment of ultimate compassion, but for In-ho who we see is an avid lover of the arts. What else does this resemble?

The painting, The Creation of Adam. Aka the creation of man. (Stick with me on this, I promise I’ll explain).

Notice that this shot not only resembles the painting on a superficial level but in spirit. Adam is in repose and God is the one who reaches out, the one making the most effort to make a connection. In-ho’s face isn’t visible but imagine how he, looking down on it, feels at the very moment:

It’s giving new religion. Later on, In-ho will say something along these lines:

Race horses. And yet, besides his brother, at this point Gi-hun is the very first person In-ho takes his mask off for, something he does not do for even the VIPs. This scene also comes after he kills a guard because “when they find out who you are, you die.”

This treatment marks In-ho’s transition into seeing Gi-hun as his only equal (and yes, In-ho is arrogant that’s kind of his appeal, I don’t believe he thinks that highly of the VIPs either).

Another aspect is that in their final scene at Il-nam’s death bed, they are kind of marked at the inheritors of Il-nam’s system.

Gi-hun leaves Il-nam to witness his one failure. In-ho closes Il-Nam’s eyes.

So it’s the end of S1. We don’t know a lot about In-ho. However we can assume a few things. Both he and Gi-hun are both victors and victims of the oppressive system. Both of them went through anguish after their victory (In-ho’s is mostly inferred, but there’s a deleted scene paralleling Gi-hun’s). Both of them failed to save what mattered the most. Both of them can’t move on from the games and returned. They both abandoned everything in their life for this pursuit.

In a way, there is no other person in the world than can understand them more than the other.

And here is where the character foil aspect comes in. Despite their similarities, their character arcs are the opposite. Gi-hun at the beginning was kind but flawed, an impulsive gambler who could steal money from his mother and disappointed his daughter at many turns. In-ho seemingly was a well-loved, upright citizen who made sacrifices for his family.

And yet, of the two the one who became cruel and heartless was In-ho. The one who became more self-less and compassionate was Gi-hun.

How does In-ho react to meeting his polar opposite? It could easily be hatred or disdain. Instead it’s well, my next point.

2. In-ho’s subtextual obsession with Gi-hun

Season 2 within the games is when most of us really saw the ship’s potential but there are many hints beforehand.

I and others have made some posts about In-ho’s wildly inappropriate actions towards Gi-hun even in S1. Why does he have to stuff the bank card in Gi-hun’s mouth, why does he send the invitation through a bouquet of flowers (actually he sends this invitation twice), why does he decide to physically be there when meeting Gi-hun in a limo on his birthday? A day, mind you, that he needs to be prepping for the games. In-ho doesn’t have to be there, he literally talks to Gi-hun through a speaker he could be in a nice hotel room. Somehow, it’s important for him to be there.

Can this be read as anything but a fixation?

Even when he joins the game his sole focus is on Gi-hun. He makes a concerted effort for Gi-hun to like him (playing hero, baring his true wounds, defending him from the ire of other players, even coming up with an flimsy excuse because he slipped up and called Gi-hun by his name). If he wanted to torture Gi-hun, he could easily turn the players against him. According to the director, his goal is:

But in front of our eyes he does shit like this:

He even bullies his guards:

Does that look like a hit to you 😭 I dare anyone to say that a different player would have passed. Especially when In-ho interceded in the first place.

Another victim:

And the looks. so many looks. You’re not behind a camera anymore, In-ho. Gi-hun can see you.

The one that makes me laugh the most is in the last episode of S2. Gi-hun is stressed about the vote, trying to come up with a plan, and In-ho is staring so hard he’s not even blinking, to the point where Gi-hun has to look at him.

And then again. Gi-hun is explaining about the control room upstairs. Meanwhile, In-ho:

He doesn’t even glance up. He just stares at Gi-hun until Gi-hun finally looks at him. Honestly this isn’t even all of them but I don’t have everything saved.

And the ending. Honestly this part is a bit heartwrenching and I think a few of us fans ignore it (I do too), but I’m trying to contextualize canon here. It’s interesting that despite how dangerous Gi-hun is – causing the disruption of the game, killing guards, and aiming to end the games on the whole – In-ho does not kill him. He has plenty of opportunities to. He even shoots his own guards to keep Gi-hun alive (despite Gi-hun in that moment running the rebellion). But he shoots Jung-bae instead and gives Gi-hun this last lingering glance.

Arguably, you can say In-ho does all this because he is sadistic. However, if that were the sole reason, then he has 400+ people he could similarly torture every year. Hell, he could have joined the games any year he wanted, too.

If it’s just an ideological struggle, then Gi-hun lost when he decided to sacrifice the X players for the greater good. Then, we are left to wonder what else he can want with Gi-hun that he has kept him alive.

The fact that the motivations are never stated and are subtext adds a layer to how fans are free to interpret it. Lots of kindling for our fire.

(I’m not necessarily planning to prove if it’s canon in this part, it’s just a treatise on why we see their potential due to this subtext).

3. Gi-hun’s reciprocity

I think if it were just a one-sided fascinating then there would still be shippers but simply not as much. The part that hits with Inhun is that In-ho’s efforts are not necessarily “unrequited.”

In the beginning of Season 2, Gi-hun has no one. He had been isolated for three years. He has no friends. He has no home. Consider this heartwrenching shot:

Gi-hun’s on the phone, calling the only person in the world he has a connection to, and he can’t even say a word to her.

Even before this, he was largely unappreciated. His mother was disappointed in him. His ex-wife resents him. Jung-bae his friend did not help him in his time of need. Sae-byeok was only in his life for a few days, but she was rude to him for a good part of that. Sang-woo – well Sang-woo is complicated. I don’t think he meant everything he said in the fight before the end, but I do think Gi-hun is the last person on earth he wants to meet after his failures. No one really talks to him kindly besides Ali which is more of polite friendliness than looking after him.

So as a #1 Gi-hun fan, it’s really nice to see someone just genuinely seem to want Gi-hun there? Not as a last resort or as an alternative, but the first pick (in a twisted way).

And Gi-hun is so receptive to it? I made a post about this before, but Gihun is starved for affection and I don’t think all that used to being treated gently. Despite knowing In-ho for a short time, he seems so. He just kind of… opens like a flower?

The first time he laughs in this season is over In-ho’s corny last name joke.

The look in that scene in general:

How he reacts to In-ho calling by hist first name:

Or when In-ho confides in him about what happened with his wife:

Or this one, when he’s dealing with the guilt of misleading all the players, and In-ho says this:

But also the moment in mingle where Gi-hun is so worried about In-ho, Jung-bae has to drag him into a room before the timer runs out. He wanted to risk it all I tell you.

And then, when everyone is calling out to him, In-ho only calls out for Gi-hun’s attention. Literally he couldn’t care about the others. He bee-lines to Gi-hun.

Or how he looks when In-ho shoots the guard for him:

Look at his face, and In-ho’s face when he gives In-ho the gun. They’re going to kill me.

4. The versatility

Finally, this is more of a meta point but it’s kind of fun that this ship doesn’t always have to be that serious? We can go from writing about deep at times darker themes of obsession and manipulation and whatnot and then turn around and clown on them for being total losers with a crush (affectionate). Usually, it’s the same person doing it. Like me in this essay. We can also just make AUs with no squid games and still have the freedom with keep the parts we like (be it obsession or devotion or a mutual understanding) and toss out the rest, and they still make sense. They just always make sense (to me).

Honestly there are stuff I had leave out because it would just maybe at tad too long-winded (as if I didn’t talk your ear off lmao).

Again, this is not an argument on whether it’s canon or not, it’s just an explanation of fanon perspective.

Ink: Paaiinnt

Ink: just let me paint you kid!

Core!Frisk: Uwooh!no! Stop it!

Ink: just a little color! ANY color!!

Core!Frisk: Dont lick me with that gross brush!

Chara: and then I said, knife to meet you!

Chara: it was a funny joke

Asgore: you stabbed my friend! We have to call the ambulance!

Sans: don't worry I'm in STABle condition

Chara: (snaps fingers at sans)

Chara: for Christmas I want a dragon!

Santa: be realistic

Chara: ok I want your soul!

Santa: what color do you want your dragon?

OT!sans: so

OT!sans: why are you guys so mean to each other

OT!sans: let's have some ice cream and talk about this

Fell!sans: what's ice cream?

OT!sans: ...

OT!sans: everything makes sense now

Claire and ranger headcannons. I need them. I live for them. It's like my drug. I'm deadass addicted.

do you relate every sad romantic song to anderperry or are you normal?