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Transitional Exterior

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sorry if youve already talked abt this, i couldnt find much -- as a multigender/genderfluid person, what do i do regarding hormone therapy? my dream appearance changes literally by the hour, some moments i deeply deeply yearn for the effects of hrt & some moments i get scared of it because i dont want anything to change. im sure some of it is just general fear of change but it also is Definitely gender-related a lot of the time .. im really just not sure what to do :[ tips/experiences?

I think the question to keep in mind is what would be the easiest "default" body to have? If there are certain traits that you would want to change on a regular basis, what would make that trait easiest to adjust?

In case that's not making sense, the aspect of my body that I have this question about is my chest. My chest dysphoria/euphoria fluctuates a lot, so sometimes I want boobs and sometimes I really want a flat chest. I'm trying to figure out whether it would be easiest to have a flat chest and use breast forms sometimes, or have boobs and bind sometimes.

Just... ask yourself what would minimize dysphoria and what would make it easiest to maximize euphoria. It's okay if you don't know the answer yet- gender stuff takes time, and there's nothing wrong with being unsure.

As for the general fear of change, I have no idea how to help you there because I'm very much also struggling with that, but I wish you the best of luck.

Don't Hide Your Wings

Pieced together with scraps

Of holy books, bound with the glue

Of a mad and desperate hope

Hang them on your shoulders,

Shine with the terrifying joy of being known.

Indulge in the sacrament of transformation,

Commune with the highest powers,

Feel your sacred self soar

Out of your bones; float in the whispers

Of thin air and cold mists.

And touch the terrible, destroying

Light of the great and fiery sun,

Falling up into the clear and silent realms

Above; the light piercing through your

Gilded flesh, radiating silvery threads.

Shed your hallowed frame and return anew

Crash and scorch the forests,

Turn the desert sands to glass,

Strike the earth with the force of

Lightning, scream your name like thunder.

Rise, smoldering, skin in embers and blessed

Black char, step from your crumbling grave

Bring new life to desolate plains,

Cleanse the salt from the fields,

Extend your arms, and breathe finally.

Breathe new air,

Breathe in new lungs,

Breathe fire and flame

Breathe nothing and everything

Breathe, at last, you.