Do you think the monkeys on the bed gave a fuck about what the doctor told them? No. They kept jumping.
Keep going. Lock in twin your gw is near.
โwhat are you eating today?โ the fat already stored in my body, thank you!
Summer is in 3 months. You still have time.
Itโs called MyNetDiary!โค๏ธ
Think I did pretty okay for a work day. No snacks, no soda. Iโm trying to keep it all under 1000 a day.
Between 500-600 not the worst day but could have been better if I didnโt have to eat dinner.๐
Iโm leaving for Europe in 5 week and Iโve got a crazy plan to lose 25 pounds within that time. Iโm gonna try my absolute hardest to work at this!! Iโm gonna update yโall rn Iโm at 145.2lbs and Iโm update this every Wednesday.
I don't know when to start and I don't know when to stop
Sometimes I imagine myself skinny, like flat stomach, small thighs and legs, small arms, small chest and there's this deep yearning that I feel lol ๐ญ
I think my dad might be catching on ๐
Heโs been making me eat dinner and watching me?
i have more hunger for thinness then i do for food.
Ik I might sound crazy but I want my mom to worry. I want her to feel bad for not realizing the pain I was going through, how bad Iโve been getting. I want her to know that every time she ever said something about me being a bad person it didnโt just affect her, but me too. She thinks that itโs all about her because of her addiction, but I want her to know that she isnโt the only one with problems. She is always going on about her stuff, how much her recovery has changed her, donโt get me wrong Iโm really proud of her but itโs like since she has recovered she hates me sm, like whenever she was drinking she would tell me how much she loved me, how special I was, but now that sheโs been recovered she canโt even speak without saying something remotely rude about my existence. I want to be the girl she thought I was. I think that If I get bad enough she will start to worry and maybe care again? Idk Iโm crazy but whoever made it this far, thanks for listening.