I Can Try But I Can Never Do Right, In My Mind It's Just So Hard To Stay Attach To This World.

I'm not good enough

HEHEHE

I so bad crave wanting to watch IT 2017 movie so bad!~

Man... I want to vent to some1 but I guess not, I mean I don't have friends at all nor any1 really... I guess I have to take out my shitty diary I guess. Like the usual.

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それでもあなたはまだ見つめている

If I don't reply, well you know why 🔪 #vent #kms

Blood on my wrist, i wanna die (I couldn't resist i just had to. I said only one cut and got carried away, haha! Not only my wrist, i did my chest too, and maybe next time, my stomach and legs)

♡I don't want you feeling ignored♡

Literally the only thing that's keeping me sane on not trying to end myself is him. I try so hard just for him... ♡

I've been feeling weird today, not broken, not happy, just odd, i came home and ran to my room crying really bad. I calmed down and apologized? To myself and others not sure why maybe because of my odd feelings today, i got told i was rude, selfish, messed up, retarded ect and went back to my room and cried again saying I'm sorry to myself over and over then touched myself for comfort but then regret it feeling ashamed then went to sleep. BTW I threw up, i didn't eat much today, but to get off the weight, me, haha! Also did a bit of workout. Good night♡