I Keep Forgetting That When I Was In Like 4th Grade I Logged On To My Switch To Play With My Friends

I sure do gender.

When I say that I don't want to exist right now, that doesn't mean i want to die. Not to me it doesn't. All it means is I want to disconnect from myself. To not feel my own emotions, to not hear my brain rile on and on, to not feel my skin on my body, to not feel, to not hear, to not taste, to not smell, to not see but still observe. I don't want to be interacted with like a person when I wish to not exist. I wish to a narrator, a viewer, a camera-man. I wish that I could fast forward to when this was a memory. I know it may seem concerning, or maybe a bit outlandish, but it makes sense to me. I want to not be there but still be there. I want to not be acknowledged by anyone and to simply watch. Watch others experience what's happening. And I want to not experience it. I don't want it. I just want to sit in the corner and watch. But when someone's in the corner watching, someone has to whisper. Has to ask questions. Has to make me exist. I don't want that. I don't want to exist, but I don't want to die either. It does make sense to me, but not everyone is me. I don't mind that either. But I want to be able to say that I am not existing and for people to understand. For them to not be concerned about the kid in the corner. About the guy sitting in silence. About your suspiciously quiet friend. I am simply not for now, and I hope you can accept that.

MMMMM midnight thoughts hittin hard tonight bois, glals, and alienby folks!

So this was a post I made a while ago... because pinterest couldn't load me any cute dress ideas and I really wanted to draw one of my OCs in a cute dress. So yeah my mental state is fine, and florida.

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Zillennial

Had a thought

Group photo!

Ostrich "meme" 16

What if I start referring to the book IT as the the canon and the movies (2017 + 1990) as the fanon? What then

Listen, I don't know how Simon got in the scar without letting Mr.Martin out. Maybe he just closed it really fast but I have a theory on how Simon was able to get in in the first place.

So Janet said that when she was in the scar for a long period of time it broke the barrier between the living and the dead for a moment. So if Mr.Martin was stuck inside his scar the whole night, it's very possible that Simon was able to get in through the broken barrier.

Now that's fine. That's neat. I'm more intrigued about what this entails about the living being able to see spirits. So far it was Xavier with his near death experience, Simon through his deep connection with Maddie, and the janitor when Janet was in the scar. So if Mr.Martin stays in the scar the whole next season does that mean we get more living-dead convos?

I'm mostly excited about, oh I don't know, Charley talking to Emilio. Especially now that he's with Yuri. Or maybe just any teacher/student finding out that Maddie was body swapped for a moment, Simon could see her ghost, and the rest of the group was doing illegal shit to get her back while using Simon's ghost connection as a helping hand. Like... what would the principal even say? And when Mr.Anderson comes in to vouch like, "Yeah, that happened. I got possesed to for a bit lol" like do you see my vision. If you do you know how spectacular it'd be.

Just a theory that will likely be 2000% off but hey, a [REDACTED FOR DYSPHORIA REASONS] can dream