An INTP View Of Life: Part 3

Chuuya, singing in the kareoke: I wanna key his car, I wanna make him lunch

Dazai, whispering to Atsushi: Chuuya sounds so desperate

Chuuya: I wanna break his heart and be the one to stitch it up

Dazai: .....wait

Chuuya: Wanna kiss his face

*Dazai, smirks*

Chuuya, making a fist: with an uppercut

Dazai: oh no....

Chuuya: I wanna meet his mom, to tell her, her son sucks!!!

*ADA and PM laughing in the background*

It's hard sometimes. To live a life with happiness. But it surely reminds you that life itself is never supposed to be happy. It's supposed to be interesting. Full of surprises and shocks. Now answer me, what keeps you waking up every day? It's the will to see another day with hope of getting through it alive. There's no meaning to life, it's us who put meaning in it. What is important is to live each day with the nonchalant optimism that the next will be better, it doesn't matter if it isn't any better. What matters is that you made into another day!

*ADA DURING AN EMERGENCY*

Kunikida: quick where's Dazai, we need him

Kenji: he isn't here, he went home

Tankizaki: let me call him

Kunikida: he's not answering

Ranpo: Osamu has a habit of not answering calls when he's drinking

Yosano: where's Atsushi?

Kunikida: Junichiro and I called him so many times what makes you think Dazai will answer him?

Yosano: cuz he's Atsushi? Everyone is wrapped around his little finger

Kunikida: that's not true---

Atsushi: ---hello, Dazai-san?

Dazai: hey, Atsushi kun~ Why did you call ⊂⁠(⁠(⁠・⁠▽⁠・⁠)⁠)⁠⊃

Kunikida: .....

Dinner table conversation in my family:

Mom (ISFJ): I tried really hard to make all of your favourite dishes!

Grandma (ESFJ): That is so sweet dear!

Dad (ESTJ): You know I told you I want to try and eat healthy boiled vegetables and you STILL made my favourite food?

Me (INTP): *I did not want to sit with them and make them see my wierd eating habits* I don't like any of these food.

Mom (ISFJ): Too bad you have to eat it....NOW

Grandma (ESFJ): Let's pray to god before eating and thank them for the food.

Me (INTP): Why do we have to pray to god when they don't exist and did nothing for us?

Mom (ISFJ): just do what you are told

Me, turns to dad (INTP): didn't you tell me to have my own opinions and ideas about the world?

Dad (ESTJ): I am not saying you are wrong but.....if you want to have food you have to go by the rules. Just pray.

Me (INTP): I am not praying to anyone. I don't care if you take my food away! I am NOT changing my beliefs!

Grandma, upset (ESFJ): why are you like this, where did we do wrong?

Mom (ISFJ): Just be thankful then, okay? I don't have patience for a debate.

Everyone: thank you god for the food we received and for everything you did for us.

Me (INTP): Thank you mom for making the food, thank you grandma for helping in preparing it and thank you dad for buying the groceries.

Me (INTP): you told me to be more thankful, I was. There's always loop holes.

Dad (ESTJ): *hides smirk*

Favourite movies: range between "classics" to "deranged". (The 1st 25)

1. Mean Girls (2004)

2. Clueless (1995)

3. Heathers (1988)

4. Dead poet's society (1989)

5. Pride and Prejudice (2005)

6. Marie Antoinette (2006)

7. The virgin suicides (1999)

8. Jawbreaker (1999)

9. Black Swan (2010)

10. Drop Dead Gorgeous (1999)

11. The Perks of being a Wallflower (2012)

12. Legally Blonde (2001)

13. She's the man (2006)

14. Ready or not (2019)

15. Lady bird (2017)

16. Little Women (2019)

17. Love, Rosie (2014)

18. Twilight (2008)

19. Entire Harry Potter series.

20. Melancholia (2011)

21. The Devil Wears Prada (2006)

22. The princess diaries (2001)

23. A walk to remember (2002)

24. The Favourite (2018)

25. Do Revenge (2022)

Is killing someone wrong?

Slyherin: No.

Gryffindor: I mean there are some people that need to be uh....eliminated.

Ravenclaw: depends on the person and if you can get away with it.

Hufflepuff: YES!!!!!

When Taylor Swift said "Take me to the lakes where all the poets went to die" I felt it.

Ps: Ranpoe is Enemies TO lovers since they are no longer fighting. Also Jouno and Tecchou don't count, since they are technically still on the same side despite fighting.

This is the Double Black generations~

Will they continue the legacy after Atsushi and Aku?

Me watching Fruits Basket:

What I thought it would be about: Oh it's a typical shoujo anime with two pretty boys falling in love with the main girl. I can watch it and be relaxed. And they turn into animals! Haha, fun.

What it was: Trauma, PTSD, Parental neglect, isolation, self loathing, self depreciation, depression, physical abuse, mental abuse, emotional abuse, psychological abuse, guilt, regret, grief, loss, heartbreak.

Now I need therapy.

(PS: as a girl who loves Girly media and Shoujo manga. I am so happy that this is a Shoujo that subverts a lot of people's expectations and makes you understand that Shoujo/Josei are NOT all the same as well as depict such a good story about familial trauma which is something we don't usually get.

I wish we could get more Shoujo/Josei anime each season 🥲)

Me: I am not crazy. I am not crazy

Brain: burn everything!

Me: No that's not me

Brain: kill everyone!

Me: NOOO

Brain: nothing is worth it. Everything you do has no meaning.

Me: ....plz stop torturing me, my teachers already do that.