2000's Bill Core

I wish I was religious

I love the idea of truly believing in something or someone higher than me, having someone to dedicate part of my life to and look to for guidance.

Unfortunately at like age 5 i woke up one day and decided I don't believe in anything except science

but religion can be such a beautiful thing and I wish i could push myself to actually believe in anything

anyone else's mum called sour sweets "spicy" or is mine just extra special?

I wish boobs were detachable. Because sometimes I want to look like a genderless being, other times the outfit needs boobs.

cough cough my ex bestfriend who acts like she's never met me before

i hope you feel like shit without me <3

I am grieving the living more than I am grieving the dead

I cry over people who don't even think about me anymore

And it hurts knowing they will never want me back

you when you get those question on like mental health positivity things where it's like, "make a list of people you trust" or "list all the things you like about yourself"

wtf do you actually write

people I trust: my mum? sometimes? maybe?

things i like about myself: my eyes, my...uh teeth???

like that just makes me seem more pathetic than i already am

honestly don't know what to do anymore

feels like every time I talk i just upset my friends or add little to the friendship

but if I don't talk i'll eventually drift away and lose them

sooo wtf do I do?

First time ever I've got a main part!!

I got Pilar who, if you don't know, is one of Elle's best friends in Legally blonde

I get to sing and have my own little very girly moment on stage

(I wanted Margot but another girl got her and she's really good so I'm very proud lol)