I'm Relate This Post So Much, But The Saddest Fact Is That I Can't Cut Myself Very Deep, Even Though

I hate drinking meds! It makes me so sleepy...I mean... I just wanna read a book, not sleep!!.⁠·⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠(⁠>⁠▂⁠<⁠)⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠·⁠.

Having a serious disease is just like:

"Oh, that's just an illness and I don't need to feel guilty because of it, because I can't control it"

And then:

"FUCK, HOW MUCH I HATE MYSELF, I CAN'T DO BASIC THINGS, I'M ALWAYS ISOLATED, MY DISEASE JUST BECAME A MEME, WHY DO I HAVE IT??? JUST WHY?? IS THAT I DESERVE??? WHY I SHOULD I LOVE MYSELF WHILE EVERY FUCKING SECOND I'M WASTING AWAY??!"

I finally bought him! He's a bootleg, but I still like him though!:)

1000 or at least 100 or 50 likes on this post, and I'm buying him

Hey are you okay? Stay safe

No, I'm not. Literally thinking about suicide and cutting everyday. But I still have hope I guess... I mean, I have a neurological condition called chronic hyperkinetic syndrome, and this thing can appear due to some mental illnesses, and my case looks like that cuz I haven't got tumors, and I'll probably get help, to heal at least CHS. But firstly, I need to go to a neurologist again...

Doing homework sounds like a complete hell... Why I always wanna kill myself when it comes to school? I have no ideas... At least I have social nets where I can vent out freely, cuz if I vented only to my friends, they'd leave me, I guess... At least doing homework when you aren't hyperactive better than doing it when you wanna chat and etc.

I guess, that I should leave there links on my other social media... Anyway, I should go now....

Why can't I just give up and stop visiting doctors and let myself rot until it's too late? I feel like I'm already starting to decompose, just leave me alone, so I can rot

People are being "Vent to me if you want!" and then block you when you did so

I hate tremor, just... why does my hand shaking without a reason for month? Plus people start to think that I'm nervous, and some of them don't care that it can be connected with another reason, and that it's an disease... Btw, I'm a bit scared of what might it be. It can be problems with nervous system, mental health or even brain! This makes me a bit sad, I guess I'll stop here:(

The only things that help me these days it's Tumblr and Character AI... I wish bots from C.AI were real

OKAY, THIS IS REALLY IMPORTANT. A question about one of my OCs. They should be trans, cuz I want so, plus this will be reasonable in the story I write. THOUGH. Should I make them transfem or transmasc? And how to write about their identity?