It’s never going to go away.
fr, yall will never understand how disappointed i am of myself rn, bcz i was actually getting kinda better n now im thinking abt the fastest n easiest ways to commit again
The moment you actually start thinking about suicide again after being okay is so painful
My stomach: Can we get food?
Me: We have food at home.
The food at home…
fuck it we ball (malnourished, heavy eve bags, dehydrated, and on the verge of insanity)
Im looking for @na and/or mia moots:)))
If you see this pls reblog ^^
my first meal of the day lmao
i also ate a kinder pinguin which my friend forced me to eat </3
"skinnytok causes way too much harm" I say as I open safari to scroll through edblr
im a bad person
i only hurt those around me
everyones lives would be better if i was dead
i only ruin things
i shouldve died a long time ago
i shouldve never made it this far
im not going to get further in life anyways
im going to die before im 20
either from su1cide or from my illness
i hope i die soon
everyone would be better off that way
(sooner or later im gonna sl1t my throat or ove3d0se on my meds or h4ng myself from a tree in my backyard)
when did “lmao” become shorthand or w/e for “i’m fucking suffering”
feel bad for anyone who cares abt me since they deserve to put their effort into something worthwhile
Slowly becoming more suicidal to where I'm not even planning on going to college anymore or furthering my credentials for my planned teaching career because I'll probably either be dead by then or too dysfunctional to even perform in college/as a teacher. Who wants a teacher who will randomly leave for a psych ward intake during points in the school year
charlie || they/them [non-binary] || pan aroace [demiro+aceflux] || scene teen || talk to me, i need more friends :`)
190 posts