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Vent
oh yeah, today's been great, definitely didn't relapse. definitely didn't nearly have a panic attack because I thought blood was dripping down my arm in lesson. definitely didn't keep walking into the guy who made s*x jokes about me for half a year last year. definitely not getting angry and overwhelmed by everything and getting yelled at by my parnsst to sort my attitude out.
me looking round the classroom, hoping no one saw me flinch when the teacher started shouting
pepito died . no one fucking move
funny how my mom though she could hide bl@des from me (i found some) she sucks at hiding them
im a bad person
i only hurt those around me
everyones lives would be better if i was dead
i only ruin things
i shouldve died a long time ago
i shouldve never made it this far
im not going to get further in life anyways
im going to die before im 20
either from su1cide or from my illness
i hope i die soon
everyone would be better off that way
(sooner or later im gonna sl1t my throat or ove3d0se on my meds or h4ng myself from a tree in my backyard)
if god doesnt to it, im taking matters into my own hands istfg
i hope this is my last year