Thoughts - Blog Posts

Canon Events for children with broken families

• heart rate going up, ears listening carefully, at any sudden loud sounds that sound like objects being thrown, yelling or drunk wailing

• hating the scent of grape juice because it reminds you of wine (and of broken objects, of pools of vomit)

• swearing to never drink alcohol when you grow up (you will never be like her)

• studying really hard and excelling in school to escape your home life (school is one thing you can control)

• being told by parents to never tell friends about your family situation or they would backstab you (and thus feeling terrible whenever you confide in others now)

• parents going months without talking to each other and using you as their messenger (leading to more misunderstandings and arguments)

• “you are just like your father/mother”, in a bad way (it’s not your fault you have your father’s eyes)

Your soul knows. It will let you know when it's time to distance yourself from people who no longer align with you mentally, emotionally, physically, or energetically.

Idm being ace anymore. I should've never had an issue with it but I did. I thought I'd feel empty. I'd never feel passion , I'd never get to experience the vulnerability of sex. I'd never get to show someone parts of me that I hide from the world.

I know now that being ace doesn't limit that. It just presents different ways of doing it. I'm not sure if I'll ever get into a long-term relationship anytime soon, but I think I can live with that. I get to daydream possibilities and look forward to it. Even if it never happens, I'll be fine. I like being alone. I like crocheting and listening to music. I like reading random books and writing essays on them. I like trying new recipes. I like myself and I wouldn't mind spending some alone time for a long time, yk?

This is just a random post lmao, idk what to put here

“Just remember. None of us have any idea what we’re doing either. No one chooses to exist. You just do. You’re gonna be okay.”

— Halsey

Don't you ever wonder how something so fragile yet beautiful will bloom after the harsh winter?

Remember even if you are still fragile or delicate...one day you will bloom.

(Picture was taken by me and no filter is added.)

recently watched monty pythons life of brian and I know it was meant to be funny and ironic but the ending really got to me for some reason

like these men know they are going to die, any chance at being saved has walked away or is lying dead at their feet but still they choose to sing about the bright side of life like in their last moments they choose to spend it singing together even brian whose been pretty upset the whole movie idk I'm not wordign this well but it almost made me cry

💚🍂🤍

Looking at how the branches of the same tree change throughout the year, I come across the following thought. Nature, with its eternal cycle of shedding leaves and bringing new growth, offers a powerful and timeless metaphor for the fleeting nature of life. Just as the leaves of trees fall and dance upon the earth, only to be followed by vibrant, new life in the form of fresh foliage, so too do our experiences and memories change and transform over time. In this cycle, we are reminded that, in the grand scheme of things, the worst of times inevitably pass, making way for the renewal and promise of new beginnings. Isn't that right?

i had a thing while washing the dishes. i applied the line "i've always entertained the thought of a higher reality" to one of my characters, except they were telling it to me (which was unexpected of my brain, really).

and isn't that a terrifying thought.

because??? would this character, one of the first i created and loved, condemn me for literally causing her demise? which made me think of something else: i do not know.

i have a vague idea, yes but really, not accurately. i don't know how she'd react to this??? this character developed on their own and i have not an inkling of thought of the gears inside that mind of hers.

i think i understand my mother quite a bit now.

young pj harvey and clairo kind of look alike…. does anyone else see rhis??

tumblr on desktop is genuinely sooo much more pleasant to use than the tumblr mobile app </3 the app is just so convenient i fear

Quirks

This is just me dumping all of my thoughts so bear with me

What are quirks? Like genuinely, what are they? They're genetic, and they influence personality. There are also quirk vestiges which are just the echos of the wielder's consciousness. But what are they really? Sure they are superpowers, they are supposed to be the next step in human evolution. But I have SOOO any more questions!!!

Quirks were an extremely sudden change. They developed and evolved incredibly fast. Seeing as Quirks are a natural development, they would have had to happen via mutation in human genetics. But a development like that, that was this widespread, this diverse, that happened this quickly had to be in the making for years. Since not only babies but teens and kids had been developing quirks right when they started it has to be a few changes that suddenly turned into quirks. But, as I said, quirks are so diverse that it couldn't have been a single, small change. Which brings me to my second question, "How did scientists not notice?" the start of quirks happened somewhere in the 2000s, a few decades after, and maybe even in the 2090s. They have modern tech, and they most likely have ongoing experiments. Why didn't any scientists flag the change? We don't know everything about DNA and which genes do what but we still should've or could've seen the new changes. Did scientists know but didn't publish anything? Did people brush it off as nothing to worry about?

Back to what quirks are. They are genetic, and they can affect personality and are rooted very deeply in the person's consciousness. But how can humans, in a few hundred years, go from us right now to being able to TRANSFORM at will, create things from our bodies, create energy, control things telepathically, and literally make EXPLOSIONS from our hands? The time it took to go from animals to humans took millions of years and in a fraction of the time we managed to actually have SUPERPOWERS, something fictional. They are such a mystery to me. Most magic/power systems have some reasoning. Like its just energy that humans use that just exists in the world. Unlike in comics, quirks are extremely common and diverse and developed FAST, so they aren't your regular abilities.

This brings me a mini theory I have, that quirks were made, or influenced by an outside party. We have always loved and been enamored by fiction. What if someone wanted to bring his favorite comic to reality? What if they were meant to be bioweapons but someone miscalculated? Or does some disease manage to change humanity and take out most of the ones not suited to survive it while possibly strengthening the ones who do? This is just a small thought I had while thinking about quirks.

I'm a science and sci-fi/fiction nerd in case you couldn't tell... but in all seriousness, quirks are very fascinating to me.

something to add with the whole food motivation, yknow the ark when the crew are on an island full of bounty hunters that are literally tricking them and trying o kill them?

He legit fights his own second in command...because they fed him. Like, he full on ignores anything zoro is saying and is fighting him and getting all pissed off because they gave him food so they definitely cant be trying to hurt them.

i dunno if thats because luffy is just oblivious or what but he is definitely motivated by food lol

Luffy not wanting to be viewed as a hero is actually so important to me. Because while the first reasoning we get for this is him not wanting to share his food

We also learn later on that Luffy also doesn't want to be viewed as a savior, nor does he ever want to present himself as such. He doesn't want to be placed on a pedestal or (ironically) be deified by the people he helps.

At the end of Fishman island, he was fully ready to leave without fanfare because he did not want to be treated by the people in that way, and only agrees to stay because he is promised food. The same thing happens at the end of Wano, where he refuses to take any credit for the downfall of Kaido and instead simply enjoys the festival with everyone else.

I cannot overstate how much I love this decision for Luffy as a character. It is incredibly common for stories like Fishman Island and Wano to have the main character swoop in and save the oppressed people, with said character being to sole person to rally them and "teach" them how to fight back. We don't get that with Luffy.

In Fishman Island, he tells the people that its up to them to decide whether or not he is their friend or foe instead of swooping in playing the role of the hero. In Wano, he understands to importance of who begins the fight with Kaido, and stands back to let the Red Scabbards (Wano natives) get the first major hit on Kaido

Even in the prison when Luffy gives his speech, he is asking the people to let him help, to have faith that they and their country can be free again, to fight for the freedom that had been cruelly stripped away from them. And even then, it is Momo and members of the Red Scabbards that fully restore the Udon prisoners faith.

Hell, we even see this all the way back in Arlong Park, where Luffy waits to take action until Nami asks him for help. He doesn't come in guns blazing and save her like some sort of white knight, but instead waits for Nami's go ahead, placing the power in her hand.

It's just such a refreshing way of seeing a protagonist in this type of story be portrayed. To have him understand the importance of the people he fight's side by side with, and not place himself as the fixer of all problems, but rather as an aid to these people (often times an aid that they explicitly asked for). It actively rejects the white savior/white knight trope(s) and allows for the people native to the island to have agency in these large battles instead of being sidelined. It is their lives and stories that are centered as being the most important in these moments, and Luffy is simply there to help them.

Deltarune Thought I Just Randomly Had

What if the ‘knight’ we keep hearing about though out the chapters is actually the character you got to customize but then discard at the start of the game?????

"You were made for me" nah, how about "I was made for you"?

Like, you're getting hot and steamy with your spouce, y'know, doing the bedroom boombayah and it's getting real steamy and all of a sudden they say "i was made for you"

and it's just like- omg

like them saying that, them expressing their love and adoration for you, implying how amazing and perfect you are that they would literally surrender their body to you just because of how much they love you and worship you?

FUCK IM GOING FERAL

Thomas Merton, Thoughts in Solitude

My thoughts exactly! I’m always so embarrassed when people ask me what my favourite anime / manga series is, because of the associations with the fan base. I don’t even bother saying it these days, I just go with Death Note, Kamisama Kiss, or My Hero Academia - although these ALSO have associations that aren’t great…

I have a draft for a Muzan!Reader type thing, and part of it will have Enmu.

I love this man

I know that many don't and just find him down right creepy (which, fair enough) but I wanna burn a town for him, praise him, and the have him thank me as I make him bleed

So, yeah

Just imagine. You took over Muzan's position? Yeah, he's pretty upset that he'd never get blood from him, he was his king after all

But now he can suck up to you

And he does a damn good job at it

You want him on his knees barking like a dog? He'll ask you where he can get a collar quick, handing over a leash attached to it without you having to mention it

He comes back from a failed mission, only having eaten half of the humans he had aimed for, praise him anyway. Call him a "good boy" and watch him melt into the floor

But don't let him think you'll let him off the hook that easily

Let him go a few fails, get comfortable just basking in you mercy before ripping it away as punishment one day

Second time in a row of having to flee from a hashira? "Stay out of my sight until you show me you are worth the blood already running through you"

He'll do anything for your attention, so when that is the punishment, taking any chance away from him, you better believe he will kill any human that crosses his path to get strong enough to kill the next hashira within a 20 mile radius

Anything to get any scraps of affection again from who he might as well consider his god/goddess

Ignore him when you're angry, and keep him guessing what mood you're in

Not even Kokushibo can tell most of the time how you will feel the next time you see him

Be greeting him with a warm smile one day (if he's been extra good, pat his head), the next grab his face and force him to the ground with a gaze of "move, I dare you" and watch him squirm in place trying so hard be good

He loves your attention on him, good or bad

He used to try to get your attention by messing things up instead, trying to see your anger directed at him, but quickly stopped when all you did was ignore him

All you have to do to punish this man is act like you don't know he exists

I was thinking of doing more but I need to upload something. I got part 2 of both moth!reader and helper!reader on its way! Just fyi👀

Have a lovely day!

No one will ever see, feel, experience things the you do. You are the only one that experiences the world that way. You will never be able to fully explain exactly how you feel about something.

Now isn't that a head fuck

Character analyses' are so fun to read because people have so many different thoughts about a single character and how that character has changed and will change in response to the environment and people around them.

Take Dazai Osamu for instance-there are so many different interpretations of his character and they figure all of that out from minute details in the novel/manga he's in. Like no, I wouldn't have figured out the connection between his ability to control his heartbeat and his humanity but thank you for taking the time out of your day to point that out.

Or someone from a completely different fandom, like say, a similar detective character who also goes around solving cases because they've inherited that trait from a mentor they deeply respect. MaoMao from Apothecary Diaries! There are numerous analysis' about not only her and how her past (being raised in a brothel) deeply affected her emotional regulation, but also posts about other people in the fandom and the symbolism behind every scene and visual metaphor used.

But in both fandoms, their respective members won't always agree with each other.

And it's just such a joy to see what people's thoughts are and their feelings about a character/characters/anything really that they're incredibly passionate about. Even if I don't always agree with them. It's just so nice to see for me. So this is a post for all who write analysis' on character's. You're doing gods work keep it up!!!

The hero or villain debate has always been fascinating to me because personally, I would rather love the hero. Not because of their personality or anything but because if it came down to it, and the hero would be forced to choose between me or the world, I would rather they choose the world.

Because that's the world-that is billions of people with lives separate from your own that will suffer because of that decision. Your teachers, your classmates, your animals, a grandma that finally beat cancer, a child who was finally born.

"A hero would sacrifice you to save the world-" I'm gonna stop you right there because that's all I need to hear.

While I do see the appeal in picking the villain, I think I'd rather be loved by someone kind enough to put others first before themselves, and if sacrificing me is the way to do it, I'd have lived and died happy.

Either that or I'm reading too much into a fantasy plot and giving my two cents on a topic no one really cares about.

I was discussing with a friend about the translation choice for The Fellowship of the Ring in French. In the first translation, the translator Francis Ledoux uses ‘communauté’ for ‘fellowship’, in the meaning of ‘a group of people united by a common goal or shared traditions’*. This is almost exactly the same definition the online Cambridge dictionary** gives for ‘fellowship’. However, ‘fellowship’ has another meaning, a little outdated, that keeps the idea of a shared goal or interest but with the added nuance of a bond of friendship formed over this goal.

And that’s where the new French translation comes in, with the title La Fraternité de l’Anneau instead of La Communauté de l’Anneau. Daniel Lauzon chose ‘fraternité’ for fellowship, meaning ‘the bond between people within a same group, working toward a same goal’*** There is an outdated and specific use for ‘fraternité’ in the context of a medieval, feudal society, to design the bond between knights who swore to protect each other in battle and always fight for the same cause. And knowing just how much Tolkien was influenced by the Middle Ages for his universe, this seemingly trivial difference of translation has me foaming at the mouth like a rabid dog. Because it means the translator, Daniel Lauzon in this case, really took the time to study and look for the exact nuance of a word to best render the idea of The Fellowship of the Ring in the translated title of the book. This is so in line with Tolkien’s love for languages and words, I am over the moon.

There is a big debate amongst French speaking Tolkien fans about old vs new translation but I am a hardcore defender of Daniel Lauzon’s translations of The Lord of the Rings because it’s the one that made me fall in love with Tolkien’s style and poetry even though it was not the original version, and that’s a feat. It’s not perfect, no translation is ever perfect, but it had this feeling of deliberate choice for each word to best render the multiple meanings of a sentence or poem. Francis Ledoux’s translation feels too dry and artificial to me, even though I love how he translated Strider by Grand-Pas, or ‘Big-Steps’

* https://www.larousse.fr/dictionnaires/francais/communaut%C3%A9/17551

** https://dictionary.cambridge.org/dictionary/english/fellowship

*** https://www.larousse.fr/dictionnaires/francais/fraternit%C3%A9/35113

I really wanna read the legacy of gods series but I'm not sure 😫

I heard the plot is beautiful and when I see fanart from nikobran, I'm almost just downloading their book on my kindle but I don't know if I can start random in the Rina Kent Universe.

anyone tips? 💗

-Alejandra Pizarnik, "En esta noche, en este mundo"

I got yelled at for coming home from a bday at 11pm, the excuse? That im too distracted and not studying enough (lie)

I just got a reality check and realized i am like my dad

I rejected him but i don't want things to be uncomfy....

"I'd rather not go back to the old house" (my dad's house)

"And now i know how Joan of Arc felt" (needing to prove myself constantly)

Born to be the protag of a cutesy magical girl shojo anime, forced to be Rodion Romanovich Raskolnikov