Hell yeah!!
It’s called MyNetDiary!❤️
Think I did pretty okay for a work day. No snacks, no soda. I’m trying to keep it all under 1000 a day.
72 hour fast starting today, I’ve decided.
Success doesn’t care how you feel right now.
(Not my photo)
Ik I might sound crazy but I want my mom to worry. I want her to feel bad for not realizing the pain I was going through, how bad I’ve been getting. I want her to know that every time she ever said something about me being a bad person it didn’t just affect her, but me too. She thinks that it’s all about her because of her addiction, but I want her to know that she isn’t the only one with problems. She is always going on about her stuff, how much her recovery has changed her, don’t get me wrong I’m really proud of her but it’s like since she has recovered she hates me sm, like whenever she was drinking she would tell me how much she loved me, how special I was, but now that she’s been recovered she can’t even speak without saying something remotely rude about my existence. I want to be the girl she thought I was. I think that If I get bad enough she will start to worry and maybe care again? Idk I’m crazy but whoever made it this far, thanks for listening.
And starving yourself can make you feel euphoric, like a drug addict or an alcoholic. What you crave is the numbing of the things you don’t wanna feel
I’ve fasted today and I feel like I’m winning.
I am nothing if not envious.
Nothing infuriates me more than a menu not having c4lori3s
Anyone else find the bruising to be oddly encouraging?
Sacrifice now, thrive later.
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