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I had over 13,000+ unopened emails in my inbox but one day I took a stimulant medication and now I have 2000+ unopened emails in my inbox
this is what we call improvement
Autism is developing entire species with full evolution paths, hierarchies, and unique customs for the world from just a single thought that you then expand on.
(I also spent approx 5 hours worldbuilding the other day)
ADHD is developing the plot for an entire book while zoned out and daydreaming and then getting so immersed in it that you spend the next week developing characters, their traits, places, development, twists and turns and just hoping the creativity holds up and you'll get to finish it.
(I spend approx 5 hours making character moodboards today)
im hyperfixating on the scp foundation again and im trying to read every scp on the main list
i have also found a browser extension that lets me track the ones ive read in a list instead of relying on the visited link colours and its sitting at 346 read scps now (i have definitely read more though, i just have to find them again)
in total there is ~7877 scps as of now so that means i have now read at least 4.3% of them - yippee
UPDATE - 1 day after above, im at 5.6747 percent now with 447 read articles
I wanna format my infodumps into video essays but I know my ADHD would make me lose interest after 1 hour
I feel so vindicated rn
i’m currently obsessed with 3 different fandoms that have absolutely nothing in common and i want to write about a hundred thousand crossover fics
Don't you hate it when-....when....uhhh *stares at the person I'm talking to for 5 minutes trying to remember what I was about to say*
Don't need to call me out like that, I have TWO HOURS to finish a FUCKING PAPER and I scroll tmbler and twitter and SCREAM on myself instead
not relaxing, not doing work, but a secret third thing (screaming in my head while doomscrolling)
Today, all I have is medication and lemonade, and I forgot to take my meds.
im having a flare up of back pain at school and im afraid to stand up because i know that as soon as my backpack touches my back that my vision will go black again, and a bolt of lightning will shoot up my spine again, and ill feel like im falling when im not again, and i already have a headache from the fluorescents again
and i cant go to the nurse again, because shell send me home again, and i cant get behind again, not with a history test tomorrow and a math cumulative thurday and a science quiz also on thursday
and im so fucking tired and i wish i hadnt gotten up this morning and i just want to go home and watch a movie with a heating pad on or just fall asleep forever
the plight of a writer with adhd and major executive dysfunction issues
I WANT TO MAKE ART BUT INSTEAD OF MAKING ART I JUST SIT AROUND AND FEEL BAD ABOUT NOT MAKING ART AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUGHHGHHG
adhd is wild. just got up from doing homework to go piss and ended up spending 15 minutes cleaning my toilet and sink. woulda cleaned the mirror too if the stuff for it wasn't in my sleeping roommate's bathroom.
it's 2:12 AM. what am i doing
you know when your adhd compels you to immediately stop all work and begin reharmonizing a choir warmup for spooky season (october) and purposefully go download a free videoediting software (ShotCut, hot artists dont gatekeep) to then continuously voice record myself for the next one hour exactly cutting and editing the voice recordings to line up (speeding up by 1.001000x with pitch consideration) and then having a result that was absolutely not worth the time because your two-voice harmony one sounded much better than the three-voice one you spent twice the amount of time as the two-voice harmony one figuring out and you messaged your music major friend about it but theyre asleep rn so your thoughts are still hyperfixated on music even though i've music'd all the music there is to music right now because i have no instruments near my vicinity enough for my adhd to consider it more convenient than it is important to stay hyperfixated on this unimportant task?
yeah me neither
My ADHD meds have been out of stock for like 2 weeks now and I’m at the stage of being unmedicated where I start getting the urge to undertake new, slightly dangerous hobbies. I have 4 wood carving tutorials open on my phone and there’s a whittling knife in my amazon cart RIGHT NOW. It’s only a matter of time before my resolve crumbles.
Out of my ADHD medication rn and I’m trying to work and oh my god this is impossible. I feel like the gummy bears from that fucking 2000s song are having a party in my skull and they’re using my grey matter as a bean bag chair and they keep pouring Hennessy shots into my brain wrinkles
My ADHD ass in 8th grade hyper-fixating on a book and reading 500 pages in a day:
Me @ my therapist in 10th grade:
This coyote is going to the Seattle Pride Parade for the first time this weekend and I'm so crazy excited >w< ☆.°✧🏳️⚧️
Catch me around wearing some of my pins that I made :3
Just remembered how in fourth and fifth grade I was only into Harry Potter and those actors so much that I started speaking with a British accent.
Then, like a year later, I was watching Young Sheldon and I started speaking with a southern accent. 💀💀
★.°✩ ɪɴᴛʀᴏ ✩ °.★
☆🌱° Hellooo, welcome to my alterhuman acc! ^^ Here mostly to shitpost/ramble, idrk how Tumblr works tbh. This is probably gonna be abandoned in like 2 weeks lmao °🌱☆
☆🌱° Basic Info °🌱☆
🦴✦ Name ➤ Wander
🦴✦ Age ➤ 19
🦴✦ Pronouns ➤ They/Them - It/Its - Fang/Fangs - Key/Keys - Star/Stars
🦴✦ Gender ➤ Trans-Nonbinary + Xenogender
🦴✦ Other Identities ➤ Queer, Lesbian, Ferasexual and Anthrosexual (humans), Ambiamorous, Rabid, Autistic, ADHD, Chronosian, Radinclus, Furry, Therian, Otherkin, Alterhuman, Non-Human, Conceptkin, Otherlink, Transspecies, IRL Werewolf
🦴✦ Hobbies + Interests ➤ Drawing, Playing Guitar (Spanish Acoustic Castella and Electric Squire), Animation, Parkour, Hiking, Urbex, Skateboarding, Cartoons, Zoology, Human Psychology, Zine Making, Fursuit Making, Social Activism, History, Philosophy, Punk Subculture, Witchcraft, Journaling, Minecraft
🦴✦ Location ➤ WA, USA
☆🌱° Alterhuman Identities °🌱☆
🪐✭ Kintypes ➤ Wolfblood (Psychological), Wingkin (Unknown)
🪐✭ Theriotypes ➤ North American Wolf (Psychological), African Wild Dog (Spiritual), Cape Clawless Otter (Spiritual), Blue Wildebeest (Unknown), Eastern Coyote (Psychological)
🪐✭ Hearttypes ➤ Clado Domestic Dog (Psychological)
🪐✭ Conceptkintypes ➤ Post Apocalyptic Survivor (Spiritual)
🪐✭ Otherlinktypes ➤ Reindeer / Clado Cervids, Clado Corvids
☆🌱° What I'll Post °🌱☆
Uhhh idk like I said mostly just shitposting and small things Im too lazy to journal about 💀 This blog will primarily be dedicated to alterhuman thoughts, experiences, artwork, opinions, and activities, however I may occasionally touch on subjects relating to queerness, transness, neurodivergency, furry, and more.
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I dont rlly have a strict dni, but in general I dislike radqueers + transID ppl and really do not agree with their ideology/their involvement within alterhuman spaces. Same can be applied to folks who publicly glorify and promote abuse/assault for their own personal enjoyment (aka proshippers), and anyone who thinks it's okay to be proud of wanting to assault children (respectfully, you should be hunted for sport <3). As for everyone else, ig just dont be a dick/creep and we're good :3
☆🌱°Thank you for reading this far!! I cant wait to be insanely cringey and say stupid shit, and hopefully make some friends ^^ <3°🌱☆
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I think this is so interesting and now I really wanna hear more about the ways different people interact with animals. I have many pets and have always been a very animal-obsessed person so I wanted to add some thoughts.
Personally, I’ve have found that the neurodivergent people I know (myself included) tend to personify animals much more than is usual. For example, when I get a new animal it takes me a while to “become friends” with them. (Which is basically just us getting to know each other/getting into a routine.) But everyone I’ve met has always been very confused by that.
Another weird thing is I’m not super empathetic towards people, but with animals I’m hyperempathetic. And I’ve seen tons of other neurodivergent people express this online! It’s such a strange thing I love it!
the cool thing about working with animals is that I have one singular neurotypical colleague (as far as I know). and it’s become super obvious to me that the way autistic people relate to animals is fundamentally different to how allistics relate to animals. and the way people with ADHD relate to animals is fundamentally different to those without.
(only one of my colleagues has Tourette’s and only two of us have OCD, so I don’t think that’s enough to make any grand sweeping statements).
anyway. a real interaction between two of my colleagues today.
ADHD: Maggie won’t stop barking at me. I think she’s upset.
autistic: let me go talk to her. I can fix this.
and that’s not uncommon? my autistic colleagues and I seem to talk to the animals to a much greater extent than anyone else. my ADHD colleagues and I seem to be the best at associating the correct name and breed and dietary requirements to the correct dog, which is weird, because I can’t do the same when it comes to humans.
I know that most people communicate with their animals but… it’s different in a way I can’t quite explain. the communication and connection seems so much deeper… I don’t know, it’s just wonderful. also, the fact that so many ND people work with me… that alone… indicates something.
the cool thing about working with animals is that I have one singular neurotypical colleague (as far as I know). and it’s become super obvious to me that the way autistic people relate to animals is fundamentally different to how allistics relate to animals. and the way people with ADHD relate to animals is fundamentally different to those without.
(only one of my colleagues has Tourette’s and only two of us have OCD, so I don’t think that’s enough to make any grand sweeping statements).
anyway. a real interaction between two of my colleagues today.
ADHD: Maggie won’t stop barking at me. I think she’s upset.
autistic: let me go talk to her. I can fix this.
and that’s not uncommon? my autistic colleagues and I seem to talk to the animals to a much greater extent than anyone else. my ADHD colleagues and I seem to be the best at associating the correct name and breed and dietary requirements to the correct dog, which is weird, because I can’t do the same when it comes to humans.
I know that most people communicate with their animals but… it’s different in a way I can’t quite explain. the communication and connection seems so much deeper… I don’t know, it’s just wonderful. also, the fact that so many ND people work with me… that alone… indicates something.
being both autistic and having adhd is just unstoppable force: *need to brush teeth because teeth feel bad™️* vs immovable object: *intense hyperfocus and horrible executive functioning*
sensory issues be like *turns up phone brightness to hear better* *turns off light to see better* *socks don’t have to match but they MUST be the same length and texture* *washes hands out of no where because they don’t feel clean* *oversensitive to one sense but undersensitive to another, related sense* *unlocks phone to concentrate*
Neurodivergent mood ™:
Practising facial expressions in a mirror
hey, remember that having low empathy doesn’t make you a bad or selfish person. it’s perfectly alright that your brain processes things differently.
also if you have heightened empathy, that’s also okay! you’re not over-sensitive, too emotional, or weak just cause you feel things different
there’s a lot of diversity in people and i think society really tends to dumb it down and assign people labels. and a lot of times that can be harmful and show no understanding of the nuances behind behavior. so if you’re struggling with this: i love you! you’re doing fine