Jirai Boy - Blog Posts

Im posting these to close to each other 😭

More make-up and sfw training!!!

(Bc living rn is making me wanna go...uhm...do some reaalllyyyy hard and deep...make-up...)

Tw: realistic blood and cuts :3👍

Im js a rlly good make-up artist, it's all fake and for my classes >////<

I think I got baaabbyyy styro??? Idk tho, I dont wanna hype myself up cause yikes :P

me core after downing the whole box of chips cause i was a lil sad🤤🤤

Like ??? Is thattt styro?? Or js a deeper cat scratch :P I think I'm being dramatic I'm gna jump.

Anyway :P here's all of my leg🤤🤤 I like fucking 10 sliced in that big bleeding one (the moot who got sent the video can vouch for me ~)

YOU ARE VALID!! it doesn't matter whether you had a good childhood or good parents, no trauma or bully experience. You feel how you feel for a reason, and that reason no matter how small it may seem compared to others is valid.

They hurt ╯︿╰

tw: realistic sfw and make-up:P

I "cleaned" them up but they stinging now :(((

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I noticed to liked my post about hypersexuality and I noticed you like cinnamoroll, so I thought I'd digitally give you a cinnamoroll plush.

You may save them as the background on your phone, computer or laptop, witch ever you have Tumblr on so that when ever you open that device you see them and (hopefully) smile.

this kinda made me tear up. Tysm. I js cms because I was having the most disgusting thoughts about myself and others, and I didn't know how to stop it. idk if It's an episode or not, but his really js fucking made my night ♡♡♡♡♡ I can't thank you enough ♡♡♡

ur amazing and you dont even know it

lol ya I dont🤤🤤🤤🤤

I hate when my mother wants to "experiment" with food

I reeeealllyyy wanna go to a mental hos >_< no responsibility, no expectations just being as unhinged as I want and getting care !?!? Sounds fabulous

inside of me there are two wolves…

idk what happened to my day, but I feel really bad now. I guess that's what I wanted

I js feel very small. Like I want to be. I really want someone to care for me, and like me, and not make me feel bad. I'm very scared right now, I don't have anyone to help me, and its really scary. I know I kinda joke about suicide but I don't tell anyone about how bad it gets. I don't like getting violent thoughts to hurt myself, I just want to be held and taken care of, and understood that I can't be ok

Whatever, mb, my throat really hurts

KK therapy was alright today :3

My therapist convinved my mother to stop pestering with questions about my life, sooo yipiierrss !!!!

But now i feel weird, ebcause i feel happy without feeling manic and hyper...sooo uhhh, i might slit or sum to make myself feel worse again :3

ALTHOUGH I DOOOO WANNA KEEP UP SOME MOTIVATION TO WRITE, SO I MIGHT TRY TO GET SO MANY CHAPTERS OUT :D

idk if im gonna be able to keep myself stable enough to fake being non suicidal in therapy tmrw :P Plus i think my hearts gone again, so if i get hospitalised, uhhhh :(((( I'll cry :(( because i wont be alowed on my phone, and i need to be online otherwise i wont be able to get any attention ╯︿╰

I wanna be independent because that's how I've been taught to be, but whenever someone starts talking about having a partner or a friend group I get so sick with jealousy