Latest Posts by bubblemintfairy - Page 3
Kinda crazy how over half of the life I live isn't even real.
I cant do this anymore, I just wish I could die. I will never be able to be happy in this body, I'll never be able to be something, never be able to be a normal functional person. My body is my biggest enemy, I'm my biggest enemy. And I wanna kill it, I wanna kill it so bad.
I've been starting to actually feel bored. My brain can't really even maladaptive daydream anymore, so my brain is just empty, nothing to look forward to, literally nothing. Except my death in like 80 years (I hope my parents live long), just waiting to wait and hurt more.
I wanna thrift w someone <333
Since i was a little girl ive always wanted to throw up blood and die
Gonna fast till Thursday noon. Right now it's only almost at hour 10, but gotta push thru it.
People think being lovesick is just so funny. Just a little heehee joke to toss around. They have no idea what it's like to feel this. To constantly crave attention, and the pain and obsession, especially when you don't get any. It's like my brain is on fire and most of the time I can't even say anything because people will just avoid me even more. They have no idea.
i’ve never wanted something as badly as i want you. i want to cradle you in my arms and lock you away forever. let me take care of you, baby.
Seeing him makes my head hurt with desire. I don't know why, but I want to bleed on him, tie him to me in way that he can't erase from his mind. I hate that a part of me even wants him to cut me. Him gently caressing the area before, holding my hand with his other hand, whispering sweet and reassuring words whilst quickly wounding me so I could taint him with my blood. After I'd just wanna lay with him, no words would be needed, I'd just wish to admire his skin painted with my blood.
When you had started to kinda forgot about him but then see him again after a long time:
Not denying it anymore. I am manipulative! I am problematic! Love me!!
Accidentally hurting your pets is the worst, because you can't even tell them how absolutely sorry you are.
I took a nap during the day and now I can't sleep. I'm so bored and just want to sleep, but I Literally can not fall asleep.
Kinda funny how I'm obsessed with him. Go out of my way to just see him for half a second. Wish I could just look at him for hours. But at the same time I aknowledge that he's kinda ugly.
Crying because of hunger <<<<
I really wish I had a good spot to cut at home. I have literally nowhere to do it and it's so unfortunate and frustrating.
The urge of having a subby buff boy to dom and take care of is returning guys 😩😩. They're just so cute (even better if they're a yandere too) akkdjdofncb
I'm definitely not talking about toji
Purged for the first time in a very long time. So fucking vile. Can't believe 12/13 year old me would do this multiple times, every day. Girlie was tough asf, current me could never.
Why can't anyone love me like I love them. Like just matching a fraction of my obsession would be more than enough.
He was sitting next to her again. I want to destroy her, but at the same time I want to become besties with her to manipulate her to make him hate her, but also get information abt him from her.
They're probs dating, I want to tear my own skin off.
I wish I was loved
For my next obsession, I think it would be better if it was mutual.
I fantasize about possessing you in every way possible, ensuring that no one else ever comes close to you again.
I want to own someone.
I want them to devote their entire life to me, to get excited whenever I come around and to beg me for even the slightest attention. I want them to live their life pleasing me, worshipping me and immediately bending backwards at my word.
Is that too much to ask?
Just realized that one of the main reasons I binge is because I have nothing else to look forward to than food in my life. I don't even fucking enjoy it, but I have nothing else.
Funny how this is supposed to be the best time of my life, but I spend 97% of it being miserable, crying and hoping something would change, knowing that nothing ever will and that it will only get worse from now.
Starting to cry as soon you stop into your home or room for no reason <<<<
I hate how my ridiculous obsession with him makes me feel such hatred towards a girl that has done nothing to me. My eyes glazed over her and my mind started automatically fantasizing about killing her. Seeing the fear in her eyes. Even when it wont being me closer to him a part of me would see it as a win, I hate that.