Tw 3d Vent - Blog Posts

Between 500-600 not the worst day but could have been better if I didn’t have to eat dinner.🙃

Im embarrassed to say that I didn’t fast today.👎

Spent the day with my mom since I didn’t go to school, and we ended up going out to eat. I ate just below my maintenance calories. This is not ideal, but I’m proud I didn’t go overboard or anything. It sucks to be so close to my maintenance though. But at least it helped with the massive headache.

I hate boys almost as much as I hate food!

(He got a new gf)

Sacrifice now, thrive later.

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TW RANT AB MY MOM

Ik I might sound crazy but I want my mom to worry. I want her to feel bad for not realizing the pain I was going through, how bad I’ve been getting. I want her to know that every time she ever said something about me being a bad person it didn’t just affect her, but me too. She thinks that it’s all about her because of her addiction, but I want her to know that she isn’t the only one with problems. She is always going on about her stuff, how much her recovery has changed her, don’t get me wrong I’m really proud of her but it’s like since she has recovered she hates me sm, like whenever she was drinking she would tell me how much she loved me, how special I was, but now that she’s been recovered she can’t even speak without saying something remotely rude about my existence. I want to be the girl she thought I was. I think that If I get bad enough she will start to worry and maybe care again? Idk I’m crazy but whoever made it this far, thanks for listening.

Success doesn’t care how you feel right now.

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In a competition of who can e@t less with my step sister (in my brain) I’m winning thank god

My retainer keeps me sane tbh, fixing my teeth, not allowed to e@t when they’re in. Fr the loml

If I go blonde I need to be at least 40 lbs lighter

Todays fuel

Did so good at the gym and only ate 200 c@ls today ♥️

Sophie is my favorite th!nspø

Today my sister told me she wouldn’t mind if I ⭐️ved myself, (I haven’t eaten a full mean in weeks) and now I know I need to be doing more bc that must mean she doesn’t see a difference…

I feel like such a loser when I eat.

Is it weird that one of my main things I’m exited for when I hit my gw is looking prettier while I’m driving? Like I have a small car and I feel like a clown right now, but when I’m small and dainty I will fit and be perfect. Idk

I will hit my gw by my birthday I will hit my gw by my birthday I will hit my gw by my birthday

I have an event to go to in a little less than a month. F@sting every other day for the next 20 days just to be able to enjoy it 💋💋

I love having the flu, like yes I get to sleep all day, taking long walks beacuse u need fresh air, and I have no appetite

Soft as an angel, light as a feather

Some of my fav th!nsp0 right now Xx

welcome back workouts in my room at night, my old friend

chew and spit, you'll forever be my holy grail

baking so i can watch others eat it while i st@rve and smile :)

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can we talk abt the fact that when you have an 3d you either hate male approval or love it. im very queer, and thought i wasnt interested in men at all for a while, but when my 3d started it was insane how much i gravitated towards them and their approvel.

or is that just me.

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~goals~

cw- 67kg

1st goal- 65kg

2nd goal- 62kg

3rd goal- 60kg

4th goal- 58kg

5th goal- 55kg

6th goal- 52kg

7th goal- 49kg

and so on

im actually really exited now that i have my goals written down :)

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I hate when I consciously binge, I'm thinking, 'Wow i just ate like a pig for 2 days, and yes i am going to continue to do that'. Like actually what is wrong with me. I'm on school holidays so i don't have school to distract me anymore and i literally want to cry.

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i saw this post a while ago that has stuck with me so much, and it's now one of the reason i love winter so much.

it was something like,

'Use winter as a cacoon. Cover yourself with big clothes while you become smaller, then in summer you will become a butterfly/everyone will be shocked because they didn't see you loose the weight.'

the exact thing happened to a friend i don't talk to anymore we drifted apart, and i didn't really pay attention to her that much. then when i saw her in summer, i was shocked, because she wasn't a skinny person before, but now she looks amazing. and i know her enough to know her methods are the ones i'm using, so it is possible. will-power and patience is all you need

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be real with me, should I start doing wieiad to embarrass myself?

dude I need to start counting cals again, i've been slacking too much.

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Heyy, I’m trying to get my following back and find new moots after my account got banned. Follow if you wanna be moots or want support Xx

alright spill, who reported my blog.

i wont be maaad i just wanna talkkk 😀