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Guys wake up a new lw just dropped!

Things have been a bit hectic here lately, so I think I can manage a water fast hopefully!

72 hour fast starting today, I’ve decided.

I feel so gross, I need to cleanse myself somehow.

So, a couple of days ago, I weighed myself and was only two pounds away from my lw. But then this week happened, and I didn’t do so well. I’m genuinely terrified to get on that scale. I know I gained, but if I see it in front of my face, I swear I’ll break down. Ugh, I’m so sick of having no control, somebody please send help.

I think my dad might be catching on 😔

He’s been making me eat dinner and watching me?

Respect Yourself.

I am nothing if not envious.

Hell yeah!!

I don’t drink, I don’t smoke, all I have is caffeine.

My current affirmation^

I hate the weekends. I can never control myself.

Resist the urge

Between 500-600 not the worst day but could have been better if I didn’t have to eat dinner.🙃

Im embarrassed to say that I didn’t fast today.👎

Spent the day with my mom since I didn’t go to school, and we ended up going out to eat. I ate just below my maintenance calories. This is not ideal, but I’m proud I didn’t go overboard or anything. It sucks to be so close to my maintenance though. But at least it helped with the massive headache.

I hate boys almost as much as I hate food!

(He got a new gf)

Day two has passed!🥳 2/5 fast

Anyone else find the bruising to be oddly encouraging?

Sacrifice now, thrive later.

(Not my photo)

Day 1/5 fast completed 🙆‍♀️

I’m going to go on a five day fast. The longest I’ve ever done is 48 hours which I know is nothing but I struggle with fasting. Wish me luck! I will post how much I lose by the end.

TW RANT AB MY MOM

Ik I might sound crazy but I want my mom to worry. I want her to feel bad for not realizing the pain I was going through, how bad I’ve been getting. I want her to know that every time she ever said something about me being a bad person it didn’t just affect her, but me too. She thinks that it’s all about her because of her addiction, but I want her to know that she isn’t the only one with problems. She is always going on about her stuff, how much her recovery has changed her, don’t get me wrong I’m really proud of her but it’s like since she has recovered she hates me sm, like whenever she was drinking she would tell me how much she loved me, how special I was, but now that she’s been recovered she can’t even speak without saying something remotely rude about my existence. I want to be the girl she thought I was. I think that If I get bad enough she will start to worry and maybe care again? Idk I’m crazy but whoever made it this far, thanks for listening.

Real question, who was the targeted audience of Super Size vs Super Skinny if not anorexics? That is the most triggering tv series ever.

Success doesn’t care how you feel right now.

(Not my photo)

In a competition of who can e@t less with my step sister (in my brain) I’m winning thank god

My retainer keeps me sane tbh, fixing my teeth, not allowed to e@t when they’re in. Fr the loml

If I go blonde I need to be at least 40 lbs lighter

Todays fuel