Depressing Shit - Blog Posts

unfortunately, I'm very much still alive and kicking.

Is it possible to feel so lonely despite being around people?

Mental health getting so bad, I'm self sabotaging and ending all of my remaining friendships.

The feeling of emptiness when you're with people.

The gut wrenching feeling when people are happy.

The feeling when people ask the heart pounding question "Are you okay?".

The feeling someone is looking at you even at your own home.

The feeling when someone ask what's wrong with you.

The feeling of waking up.

The feeling you'll never recover.

I really want to end it all right now, its so damn tiring. What's the point in living anyways? I can't even bring myself to seek help anymore, why bother asking for help? I should just end it all, why i am hesitating? I am already tired, i don't see myself getting better either.

Living just keeps getting harder by the day, I don't know if i can keep going like this. I hate going to school. The way people look at me is so suffocating. The way people talk about me. Why do i have to suffer like this? Is liking someone a crime now? Just because i liked a guy? School isn't fair, they only got off with a warning. I can't even bring myself to look at people anymore, i feel like i am the one at fault, and not the victim with the way people look at me.

I hate highschool.

I thought that everything was going great and i was getting better, then everything started to go downhill again.

I wanna kms already

Stop acting like you know me.

The fact that you're feeling sick but your mother still forces you to go to school because it's friday

I promised myself i would stop cuttting, i guess some promises are meant to be broken.

How do i die in my sleep?

How do you kill yourself in the most painless way?

I can never trust anyone.

I should've kept everything to myself.

I should've stayed quiet.

I keep throwing up wtf

When will this misery end?

I failed at trying to get rid of myself. It hurts

It hurts.

Stop acting like you know everything about me.

School is so fucking hard

Why do you hate me so much? I'm trying my best, but it's never enough for you.

Why i am so special in your eyes? Why do you like me so much? I wish i was a better person, i am so sorry.

I hate living, but i don't wanna die because something is holding me back, but i don't know what it is and it's killing me.

I fucking hate my life.

I hate this sm but oh well

I ll try to fix it digitally 😭

procrastination this procrastination that... i suppose people are lucky if they are able to get job done even at the last moment. because i don't even "procrastinate", i'm just painfully lazy?? i don't.... finish things??? at all??? my courses i paid a load of money for, they ended months ago. i paid more to extend them and

and

and you'll never guess what i'm not ever doing (my homework).

i can’t do this anymore. i give up. life wins. let me bed rot for the rest of my days. i no longer want to face the world.