Light As A Feather - Blog Posts

I've been through a sort of "bUrn out" for the past 2 months or so and gain3d back 3-4kgs, feel free to bulLÿ me into loosing them ☀️

not saying no to the Starbucks employee and ending up eating too much cuz anyway how could you refuse a pumpkin spice donut??? 💀☀️

Not me going on 3dblR the second I exit the call with my psychiatrist that I spent 1h gaslighting into thinking my "mother" made up my 3d cuz she really wants me to have one (which isn't completely fake, she just wishes I had an "easier" 3d to instrumentalize)☀️

a little late but yeah im locked in for this october ☀️🎃

im either cvtting, complaining abt not r3strict!ng well enough, or studying til i can't think anymore and i wont stop until i get skinnier and keep those grades up.

☀️

there's this girl in my class who's so th!n when i saw her for the first time i thought "an4" and it turned out her name is anna ☀️

I’m leaving for Europe in 5 week and I’ve got a crazy plan to lose 25 pounds within that time. I’m gonna try my absolute hardest to work at this!! I’m gonna update y’all rn I’m at 145.2lbs and I’m update this every Wednesday.

I’ve fasted today and I feel like I’m winning.

I wanted to get on here and just thank all of y’all for 150 followers. I love you all so much, you’re so sweet and amazing and awesome. Even though this community is built around the unwell, I’ve met some of the nicest people on here, so just once more, thank you!

I live for ts ^

(Not my photo)

(Also they’re only ten calories?How??)

Omfg I think after eating like I did in march and the restriction I’m in this month I’m lwk getting the high again and it feels amazing

March absolutely sucked. Praying for an angelic Ana April.

(Wishing you all one as well)

No way, I'm actually so mf done. Okay, so yesterday, I was hanging out with my friends, and they know that I’m insecure about my weight and stuff. Not about this and my ED or whatever, but they know to some extent. So I'm sitting there, and I pinch my friend as a joke, it’s a thing we do to each other every time we see a yellow car. I pinch her, and I was standing beside someone else. She yells at me, and I ask her how she knew it was me. She told me I have fat fingers. wtf? Yeah, then she proceeds to tell me that the girl next to me has skinny, small hands. I wanted to cry more than I ever have, I think. I think what kills me over everything else is that she knows I'm insecure. I've opened up to her. I honestly feel so sick.

I hate everything right now. It feels like my body was made to hold fat. I can’t lose anything anymore. I’m literally so done.

72 hour fast starting today, I’ve decided.

I feel so gross, I need to cleanse myself somehow.

So, a couple of days ago, I weighed myself and was only two pounds away from my lw. But then this week happened, and I didn’t do so well. I’m genuinely terrified to get on that scale. I know I gained, but if I see it in front of my face, I swear I’ll break down. Ugh, I’m so sick of having no control, somebody please send help.

I think my dad might be catching on 😔

He’s been making me eat dinner and watching me?

Respect Yourself.

I am nothing if not envious.

Hell yeah!!

I don’t drink, I don’t smoke, all I have is caffeine.

My current affirmation^

I hate the weekends. I can never control myself.

Resist the urge

Im embarrassed to say that I didn’t fast today.👎

Spent the day with my mom since I didn’t go to school, and we ended up going out to eat. I ate just below my maintenance calories. This is not ideal, but I’m proud I didn’t go overboard or anything. It sucks to be so close to my maintenance though. But at least it helped with the massive headache.

Day two has passed!🥳 2/5 fast

Anyone else find the bruising to be oddly encouraging?