Latest Posts by white-fanged - Page 2

laying in bed at night knowing she doesn't miss me as much as i miss her

she doesn't cry every night, begging for it to end

she doesn't lash out at everyone around her because she's so upset and angry with the world

she isn't in therapy because we're not friends anymore

She doesn't want me back and she never will

do u wanna come over & ignore the rest of the world together

Sometimes, I miss people that used to be in my life and feel the urge to reach out and tell them "hey I know we don't talk anymore but I still fold my sweater the way you taught me to". Not in a "I want you back in my life" way but more of a "my life has more colors now because of all the days we spent laughing together and I'm thankful for that".

i hate feeling invisible when I'm surrounded by people

it's like i'm not even there, everything I say is ignored

no one notices when i'm trying to talk to them

i wish i actually was invisible at this point

The Death of Orpheus (Henri-Léopold Lévy, c. 1870)

“Everyday is the same and everyday I’m starting to hate everything more.”

— (via to-be-far-away)

roles I wanted vs what i actually got:

DNA Wanted - any girl part Got - Danny

Cinderella panto wanted - fairy godmother got - evil step mother

Across the line (show created by my academy) Wanted - Kai (main part) Got - I was the only one without a named/speaking part T_T

Trouble's a brewin (made up show) wanted - anything Got - nothing lol

Legally blonde wanted - Margo Got - idk yet

I am one of the only student that have been there for years only recently they realised I could sing like bro wtf

in my head i'm a cool pinterest boy

i love having so many random hobbies as no one really expects like:

Yeah I do musical theatre

yeah I'm training to be a lifeguard

yeah I'm an art scholar

yeah I'm a writer

yeah i used to do horse riding, violin, piano, singing, ballet, rugby ect

I highly recommend a clingy, lovey-dovey partner. Life’s too short to be with someone who acts like showing love is a chore

"you've been really quiet recently, what happened? Why don't you talk as much anymore"

maybe because everytime i get excited and start talking to you, you say I'm being too loud, shut up omg, to calm down and "wow you're really talkative aren't you?"

like what do you want from me at this point???

cough cough my ex bestfriend who acts like she's never met me before

i hope you feel like shit without me <3

honestly don't know what to do anymore

feels like every time I talk i just upset my friends or add little to the friendship

but if I don't talk i'll eventually drift away and lose them

sooo wtf do I do?

you when you get those question on like mental health positivity things where it's like, "make a list of people you trust" or "list all the things you like about yourself"

wtf do you actually write

people I trust: my mum? sometimes? maybe?

things i like about myself: my eyes, my...uh teeth???

like that just makes me seem more pathetic than i already am

arguments with my Christian bf:

Him: you're going to hell for not believing in God

Me: Well I don't believe in hell so I don't believe I'm going there

Him: what are you going to do once you're dead and you meet God then?

Me: well I don't believe in him so I won't meet him

Him: but when you do he'll send you to hell

(this is the same bf who says he respects everyone else's opinions and respects my views O_O)

This but also the person who you forced to carry a fetus to full term could’ve cured cancer. Or you know if the government didn’t slash cancer research funding those people could’ve cured cancer.

I wish I was religious

I love the idea of truly believing in something or someone higher than me, having someone to dedicate part of my life to and look to for guidance.

Unfortunately at like age 5 i woke up one day and decided I don't believe in anything except science

but religion can be such a beautiful thing and I wish i could push myself to actually believe in anything

school kills artist is a phrase I've seen a lot but never really related to

UNTIL

my stupid fucking gcse art makes me want to carve my eyes out and burn my hands off bro it's so bad

i love art, i love painting, i love creating

I DON'T love having deadlines, expectations and a stupid annoying ass teacher providing no help at all but telling me I need 5 more pieces or I'll fail

I want some platonic love yk?

I don't need a bf or gf I just want a close friend who gets me

someone who is close and touchy but we both know there's nothing more to it

I want to love someone without worrying that they think I LOVE them like I don't want to date anyone I just want someone to share this life with

Everyday I feel like I'm counting down

9 hours until the day ends

6 days until the week ends

256 days until the end of the year

what's the point in living if I'm just waiting for the end?

Not now kitten daddy's googling his symptoms

If we are made in God's image then he must be the devil

As we are a violent, cruel and sorry excuse of flesh and bones that destroys everything bright and beautiful given to us

bitch this is all you’re gonna get. this life, this face, this body. you better not ‘maybe in another universe’ your way out of everything. sit your ass down and face this. go make tea and have a picnic and read a goddamn book. kiss your loved ones, send that damn text, and hug your siblings. this is all you’re gonna get.

Nobody apologized for how they treated me they just blamed me for how I reacted

“your trauma doesn’t define you” no actually it does. it dictates every aspect of my shitty life.

how can you look at me and pretend I'm someone you've never met?