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WAHHHH, I CANT TAKE BEING ALOONEEE, IF I DONT GET A PARTNER BY NEXT YEAR I'LL BE PUTTING MY HEAD INTO THE OVEN

WAHHH TYSM FOR THAT TAG !!!

(I'm gna blur the songs cover because there's like blood and disturbing shit)

(the blue eyes look so unsettling-)

TAGS !!!! (sorry if there unwanted, im also tired so i wont be doing a lot of my moots)

@gutted-pawz @insufferablewhore @2u1c1d4l @noodle-bro @crumbledtoast

i found a cool tag game on twitter and i really wanna import it (o^ ^o)

this picrew + the last song you listened to :]

no pressure tags: @blood-loving-leech @overtaken-boredom @lesbianthatyaps @kameonerd566 @hexedvampire @laczki @anonymous-shxtposter @fleurafae @flovqy + anyone who wants to do it <3

I needdd to take a shooweerrrrrr, wahhhhh I don't wannaaaa.

But my hair is so crunchy, it's been like a week since I've had a shower or brushed my teeth🧍‍♂️

Ugghughhhu this is so annoying, I haven't gotten sick for years but these 2 months I've just STAYED sickkkkkk

I also have had no appetite and it sucks whej my mother makes me over eattttt, it makes me wanna dieeeeee

Ive also had no energy to cvt so I've js been so fucking stressed💔💔 and I can't cut how I want 💔💔

WAHHH I NEED MORE ATTENTIONNN, SOOOO PLPSLPLSPLS FOLLOW ME ON PINTEREST 🥺👉👈

૮꒰ ྀི >⸝⸝⸝< ྀི꒱ა

I need someone to stay with me so bad omfg😭

The amount of times I've tried to tell people to not talk to me if they can't handle me bc I know I'm not a great person, but people are always like

'No I don't mind, I can handle it ^^'

LIKE OBVIOUSLY YOU COULDNT BECAUSE YOU LET ME GET ATTACHED THEN LEFT

AGAHAUAHAHAHA IF I GET ONE MORE FP OR FRIENDS AND THEY LEAVE, YALL WILL NEBER SEE ME AGAIN 💀

AHH I LOVE WHEN SHE SENDS PICTURES AND VIDEOS OF HERSELF, SHES SO FUCKING PRETTY IT MAKES ME WANNA KMSSS, AHHHH MWWAHHHH <3333

CAN WE ALL AGREE THAT JIRAIBLR IS BETTER THAN JIRAITWT AND JIRAITT ?!?!?!?!

It just feels so much more inclusive and accepting.

I THINK I FINALLY UNDERSTAND WHY I SWITCH UP ON PEOPLE SO QUICKLY NOW !!!

(this applies more for people I know irl rather than online)

So yk how sometimes you have fake arguments in your head ? I do that but have full conversations. But it can be very specific.

For example, I always think about what will happen in my therapy sessions, and since I hype myself up about what it's going to be like, I get disappointed and upset when my therapist seems to be going off my script

It happened today with my teacher. I built up the courage to go up to him and ask about the test and if I could do it earlier (since I was leaving school, before the time of the test) and the second I asked, he looked uninterested and plainly said I had to do it tmrw. It wasn't the reaction I had thought he would have (nor was it the one I wanted, I think he's a bitch for being uninterested, there was like 4 kids in the class and he was doing nothing, so it's not like I inturputed him or anything)

Anyways, I think that's the best way I can explain this XP

OMGGG MY MOTHER DID THAT, SHE TOOK AWAY ALL THE BANDAIDS AND THE CLEANING SPRAY💀💀💀 Critical thinking just left her i guess :P

I hate when people take away bandaids when they find out about your self harm, like how does that help???? The whole point of trying to get someone to stop self harming is that it isn’t safe, and since taking bandaids away isn’t stopping them that just makes everything even more unsafe. Some ppl are dumb

FINALLY SOME GOOD...sfx...makeup...totally not real blood

I FEEL SO HAPPY AND JITTERY EHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEH YAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYA

Tw forrrrrrrrr cvtssss (n blood)

Block don't report please this is a coping mechanism :( I'm safe trust, my therapist looks at them often to see if there clean ^^

Cat scratchessss >.<

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Finally got some good bl00d

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I thought I got more pics wth😭😭

Just as i did it

And this was my attempt to clean😭😭

(I did some bandaids cause it wouldn't stop bleeding and I'm not sure when my family's gonna get back :P)

Me bc my childhood actually DID really affect me and how I feel about men, women and people as a whole

As well as how I veiw myself and people close to me

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*posts something*

*posted one second ago*

*no notes*

What the fuck ???

If and when I get some new blades, I wanna add my dearests name and then I want to try some patterns :D

I've seen people do hearts and stars AND a hello kitty thing. I LOVVE HELLO KITTTYYY !!! But I don't think I have that much control (or patience) to carve a whole Hello Kitty face (and Cinamarolls my favorite, so I'd prefer to do him tbh :P)

Sooo ya !!!! When I get some blades, I might do some hearts and show them o(〃＾▽＾〃)o

(ill sob if I don't get some blades soon istg)

Just in case anyone was wondering

Obsession is not cute or romantic

Its dangerous and unhealthy

Its not fun being on either sides

Being obsessed with someone is so physically painful at times and it causes you to lash out and do irrational, unforgiving things

I can't speak for people who have been obsessed over but I imagine it would be an unfortunate uncomfortable thing

Stop using it as a little quirky trait, and if you are going to use it, potray it correctly and do not romanticise it because in no way is it romantic

IM SO HAPPY I ATE ONLY AROUND 500 CALS TODAY !!!

(i would have eaten less but it is so hard to get around eating when in recovery 😭

Im currently at 42-43 kg (it alternates because yk im in recovery so its acc so hard to starve or purge now)

AND I WAS AT 39 KG !!! LIKE TWO AWAY FROM MY UGW BUT HAUFDAUHWHFEF FUCKING THERAPY SNITCHED ON ME >:[

born to be a wrist cutter, forced to be a thigh cutter 💔

Yes looking at pictures of peoples self h4rm makes me feel better

Yes it also makes me feel like shit because I know I don't have enough courage or supplies to actually cut as deep as them

Being so depressed you can’t even cut yourself <<<

When scars and marks start to form >>>>>

"No M, you can't carve the name of all your mutuals and friends onto your body !"

God forbid a boy has hobbies 🙄

Intro :P

-> ☆ Name: M (or anything, give me a name and I'll use it :3)

-> ☆ Age: In between 14-17

-> ☆ Pronouns, sexuality: He/him/ + neopronouns that I'm too scared to share >.<). Bisexual, possibly demi-romantic

-> ☆ Likes: Bungo Stray Dogs, Needy Streamer Overload, Suicide Boy, Sanrio, Sonic, Death Note, Flowers, The rain, cutting

-> ☆ Dislikes: Most people, yelling, animals, eating, when my blades are dull

DNI: I don't think I mind to much who interacts, as long as people don't dm me :P I'm very paranoid about getting weird stuff ＞︿＜ I think anyone under 12 shouldn't be on Tumblr or social media. So, no DNI, I'll just block if I want :P

I'll post things about self h4rm, 3ating disorders, su!cide, or just any of my depressing thoughts or opinions. I'm also a Jirai >:3 So if I act different sometimes, I should be back to normal soon enough :]

I haven't been diagnosed with anything, but I'm semi in the process of getting diagnosed with Autism and SAD (social anxiety disorder). I have asked my therapist if I could have BPD, and he said my symptoms can eventually evolve into BPD :P Trynna get help for it, but idk if its working :/

ANYWAY

Enjoy this blog ^^

jirai media recommendations (feel free 2 suggest more)

some r still ongoing btw

-Young Adult Matters

movie (2021)

tw: sh, substance abuse, bullying, violence, gore, prostitution, death, sa, homelessness, sexual content, abuse, profanity, unwanted pregnancy (prob more im forgetting)

-Tomorrow I’m gonna be someone’s girlfriend

manga (2019-2024) and tv show (2022-2023)

tw: sh, profanity, sexual content, violence, substance abuse (again prob more im forgetting)

-Kairiki Bear

musician

song suggestions: darling dance, bug, failure girl, villain

-Isana

musician

song suggestions: Menhera Janai Mon!, Loved Smoothie

-Sensitive Boy

manga (2022-2024)

tw: sexual themes, sa, sh, violence (prob more i still need 2 read it ngl)

-Sentimental Death Loop

video game (2023)

tw: death, partial nudity, sexual themes, profanity, sh, suicide, violence, gore,

-Needy Streamer Overload

game (2022)

tw: sh, sexual themes, violence, substance abuse, blood, profanity, death, cults, vomiting (prob more that im forgetting)

-Strawberry Painkiller

musician

song suggestions: Bloodsucking Dreams, Grave Skull, Thousand Knives, Sugar Truth, Pharmakeia

-Candye Syrup

musician

song suggestions: idol of death, sweet suicide, C♡S.I.S

-Hookah Haze

game (2024)

tw: death, terminal illness, stalking, substance abuse (its just hookah im pretty sure but still gonna include the warning lmao)

-Magical Girl Site

anime (2018) and manga (2014-2019)

tw: bullying, violence, suicide, abuse, blood (prob more i havent finished it)

feel free 2 suggest more! out of all of these i suggest young adult matters, kairiki bear, nso, and strawberry painkiller the most!